MicroChipped Writer Rod (The Total News Junkie)

"A master is anyone who can be themselves in any situation." - Boyd Varty

Haha I think I get dysphoric also because part of me is like why are you wasting this mood sitting at home lol what a crazy but interesting way to think with too much depth lol I have to admit I'm really looking forward to going out and knowing something about being here alone drunk in the night probably isn't going to set in in the same way

It's going to pretty terrible if these ideas about how people really feel or have to express the opinion of being better in some way is actually true. I don't want to see it as a reflection of information I just assume is unknown but I'm just like based on what people's strong points are when I have that dysphoric mood its like I guess I would rather that be my own jealousy than anything I have to keep finding is so true about people. It's not the hugest deal but I guess it's better to be prepared for something about that to be information I'm having to integrate more so than something my mind is using to fill in the blank

It's weird though all in all I came to the conclusion that exceptional people wouldn't communicate like that anyway but I don't know why in my mind at times a lot of the people in my life anyway get framed as communicating information to me in the most fucked up way then feeling like I'm never going to catch up is one of the worst feelings ... And I don't even really believe that because it can't make any sense

Paul Klee -Tree of life

Man I don't feel that well today....I dunno I was taking that negativity I experience and framing it for the details that I can solve and I dunno my mind is at peace but Im just a bit concerned about making sure I'm doing enough routine building towards my goals and personal interests. Everything about that feeling screams in dissatisfied with life but not a lot of people really live with the benefits I see for myself but also I don't really feel like I get along with anyone to know. I have no friends and am just kind of on the shit list for a reason to solve I guess...really I just didn't get my ID still because my phone died....but the way the details came together it gave me way too many details about things I think I need to change to feel successful or like this is where I should be but I dunno it will probably be pretty simple stuff to change

“My brain is only a receiver, in the Universe there is a core from which we obtain knowledge, strength and inspiration. I have not penetrated into the secrets of this core, but I know that it exists” ~ Nikola Tesla

Good morning 🌞 I hope everyone is ready for the new week!

It's like no.womser all these white nationalist cults start branching off the fucking equation

Brroo why is my flatmate always awake in the middle of the night.....I dunno anyways I'm just not drinking again like that...was disturbingly stupid

Anyways Im always doing the dumbest fucking thing... hopefully I can just solve everything in a way that makes sense to see if anyone just wants to chill finally.....and maybe I can be less obvious or something.....it sucks feeling like a moron most of the time lol

Its funny every time people ask me if Im leaving im just like nope haven't even started to see what I can do to help myself....it's never in bad taste either....I'm just like why doesn't my mind get like this at the wrong times

Anyways I need to improve so that fate can point me in the right direction.....I know my limits in fucking drinking now for sure

That's all I know

Anyways before I got to sleep and just forget all of this it was only like a year ago everything was fine in whatever was happening related to whatever is now causing me intense dysphoria

Any fucking ways of course a bunch of friends and people on the schedule of the score keeper are always going to win....

I dunno I'm having fucking nightmares again

Man so many things I wish I could feel again not as if there's some piece of shit taking score on every little thing that happens oh that stupid shit is far from victory even though he can feel good

Im.resllt.flsd.i finally came out with that as being something I stay kind of stressed over...I just want to get new outfits and not think about anything for awhile...my mind was all caught up in the wrong way about having to work and I don't even mind a few months of work to get back to where I was