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@puppifiedcorpse @didntdigest my ex used the texture of my leg to get butter off his fingers one time

@didntdigest my ex was blind and used to tell me my arms felt like those rough stone walls 😭 idk this reminded me of that

ivr been cutting on this part of my arm for so long the texture is so fucked up

@didntdigest my leg looks like this, it looks so insane under certain light lol it kinda makes me feel better abt most of the individual cuts being very small

how am I a cutter i am acc so squeamish that was gross

I was picking the scabs on my leg absentmindedly and whatever way I moved my hand my finger shoved DIRECTLY into one of the open wounds oh my god it was so damp and squishy snd fleshy ewewewewewwwwwwwwwww

@blxycolaaddict real omg, in hindsight that time I realise I was probably down to that layer already but whatever way I nicked it on the last swipe all the fat just erupted upwards and clogged the wound. stopped bleeding immediately from this mound of congealed tissue. absolutely nasty lol

@hand0fglory Absolutely. You’re literally exposing a chunk of your own dermis. It’s so horrible to actually experience.

for the record its also fucking disgusting

@cptncrunchwrap regular ones or the ones with chocolate or yoghurt or whatever yeah they suck. BUT those little mini ones that come in a bag like crisps / chips and theyre salt and vinegar flavoured OUUUHHHHHHH theyre good

is this a safe space to say that rice cakes are absolute ass

chunks exploded out of my arm like a zit and then leaked fluids for days and went all grey and mushy whenever it got wet and it smelled so weird. even if nothing goes dangerously wrong just save yourself the trouble it is nasty

@RoyalistW capacity to do. it is a nice thought though. chances are ill end up doing it at some point in my life for better or for worse

@RoyalistW that used to be my instinct. id leave the house at 5am in a frenzy and just pick a direction and start sprinting. hid in a field from my dad once lol. people come looking and will drag u back unless you orchestrate it far better than someone in that state realistically has the

Suicide is an act I can not understand If you have given up on life then there is no reason to fear death much less anything else. Quite your job, wander the world, live in the woods, etc, etc. You might as well risk it all if you’re ready to throw it all away anyhow.

he thinks its smth pokemon or hello kitty related hes not even remotely on the right track tho so i think im safe in that regard LMAO

obviously im not a complete ass so if one of my friends wants a few days to sort themselves out im gonna completely respect that but oh my god im gonna die if I dont tell him abt the german shepherd I saw yesterday or the gift that came for him today RRGHHHHHH

i wanna keep it for his bday but idk if i have that kinda self control LMAO but I spent all of last week betting on 2 cassettes that are his 2 fav albums from his fav band and one of them came today AND I CANT TELL HIM YET AND WHEN I DO I CSNT EVEN SAY WHAT IT IS RAHHHHHH

@forthesickboy tbh I get competitive over either. even if my cuts are deeper i still feel like shit if I see someone with more cuts / scars bc i feel like that also means they're worse than me. its all subjective sh is sh i don't think theres any such thing as being a poser really

@Halfemptyhearts @sickndstarved the exploitation in the porn industry is a byproduct, the exploitation in material of children is why it exists. the exploitation and harm is the appeal

@sickndstarved As another victim I’m confused by this, porn often is not consensual. I don’t use the term but I hate the seemed fact people have created that porn is inherently consensual. Like the entire industry is exploitative and majorly non consensual. I just don’t get this argument

hey i may be having a mental breakdown but pls dont call it cp! That insinuates it was consensual. It isnt. Its CSAM. Child sexual abuse material. Coming from a victim who had CSAM made of them

@principessavina @uh90l probably not but im paranoid 😭 im still gonna grow it out tho so whatever

@hand0fglory @uh90l I have long hair , i dont think it adds anything significant to the scale tbh

anyone else refuse to weigh themselves with wet hair?

@HumanBxtcher someone else's artery idk 😭😭 thats not a thing

Where can I cut to see my blood spraying out that isnt a artery

@imp3rfectana its comforting. its hard to care about real life when ur too depleted to think about anything other than the ed plus the weight loss itself is like proof that things are in control and that theres always something else there to distract myself with

Edtwt what’s your reasoning for wanting to be so skinny?

@matchakitkatxx its not like a skill you can learn is what im saying and its also not a good thing. purging is purging theres no benefit to not "having" to use your hands it just means youre in deep shit

@matchakitkatxx its not a good thing it means youve worn out the muscles in your throat and stomach. its not voluntary from what I understand. it just means youll have to swallow a mouthful of puke every time u wanna tie your laces or pet a dog or literally anything