lottie

⠀ you don't have to pity me , charlotte . okay ? i didn't fucking ask you to . and i especially don't need this . . . act you have going on where you pretend to like me . it's not cute . ⠀

C͟𝙷𝙰𝖎𝙽𝙴𝙳⠀⠀⠀ ﹠ ⠀⠀⠀ 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘦𝘥. ⠀⠀⠀ all ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍⠀⠀⠀ 𝑔ᵣₐᵥₑₗ, ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗈𝗁. ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝖺 ⠀⠀⠀ *̲ 𝗉𝖎𝗍𝗒 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗍𝗈 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝕽 ᴱᵀᵁᴿᴺ ⠀⠀⠀.̲.̲ ⠀⠀⠀ 𝖻𝗎𝗍 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝗂 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 ⠀⠀⠀ 𝓁earn.

⠀ ( * now they're annoyed . they needed a do over . another inhale of smoke to follow . but still —— the same thing happens . they cough . more aggressively this time . ) of course i'm fine , lottie . + ⠀

⠀ ( * sticking it in her mouth , leaning towards lottie . long inhale of the smoke . but it's weird —— she coughs . she hasn't from smoking in forever . ) fuck —— what the fuck is up with your lighter ? ( * it's not the lighter . ) ⠀

"i can't do this," i thought. then: "and even if i can't, i have to."

⠀ ( * eyes widen briefly , clearly caught off guard . this isn't rooted in anything . . . ? right ? then why is she nervous . . . ? ) oh —— y —— yeah ! okay . sure . . . ⠀

⠀ jeez , lot . okay . ( * eyebrow quirks momentarily . slowly pulling out a cigarette from the box she keeps in her jacket pocket . now gesturing for the lighter . ) ⠀

⠀ . . . okay yeah i get it . ⠀

⠀ i dunno i feel kind of embarrassed right now —— ⠀

⠀ oh so you just wanna embarrass me . ⠀

⠀ thank you , lot . i do mean it . ⠀

⠀ yeah sure . whatever you want . ⠀

⠀ please , lot . just this once ? ⠀

⠀ my hard earned cigs ? you know the shit i had to go through to get these ?? ⠀

⠀ i was only going to ask if you had a lighter —— ⠀