kenmachris

I was there on your first day and your last. Watch over us In Heaven Chris, we will be together again soon. I love you as much as a human can love another, as much as a soul can love another.

Miss you brother, always thinking of you.

I’m in so much pain lately Chris. I’m broke and can’t even afford rent. How do I keep on going all alone in this world. I know I don’t have a choice.

I spent most of the weekend with Ryan and Ben. Had lots of fun, probably one of the best weekends I’ve had in a while tbh. After they left all I can think about is how much better it would’ve been with you here. I just miss you every second of everyday. It’s almost been 2 years since you went to Heaven. The days are long and lonely but the months are just passing by. I look forward to our season 2, which will be never ending. I love you brother, forever.

Hung out with Ryan and Ben yesterday. Ben is taller than me now! I’m trying my best to be half the Uncle you were and keep making you proud. I love you forever @Zuna_Chris I’ll see you as soon as I can.

I’m 41 in a few hours @Zuna_Chris I don’t celebrate my birthday or holidays anymore. Just grateful the years are going by fast so we can be together as soon as possible. Grief and gratitude, balancing them is my life now. I love you Chrisma, forever and always.

So I’m putting on my socks today to head out for the gym. I love no show socks, Chris couldn’t stand them. We both use sandals 90% of the time but when we wore shoes he’d have to have ankle socks lol. God I love him.

Grief and depression have really been kicking my ass lately Chris. I’m trying to focus on health and spending time with our loved ones, it helps. Not being able to talk to my other half feels like I’m just alone in this darkness with no end. I know Jesus is the light, I know it’s only time until I see you again. It’s just impossibly hard without you. I love you.

Grief has been kicking my ass lately Chris. I’m just jealous of everyone that still has their family.

The first thing I want to do when the grief hits me is order junk food. Probably the worst thing I could do. Addiction with grief and depression is not a joke. I understand why people’s lives fall apart or they end it all. I have no ambition to work but I have to pay rent and bills. I just want to go to Heaven and be with you.

The days really don’t get any easier brother. I had a nice day with Willy this weekend which is pretty rare. Kevin hit master in league lol. I’m just trying to do all the things we love, it’s just not the same without you. I’ll see you as soon as I can, love you forever.

Been having some rough days lately Chris. Getting back to you is all that matters.

I miss you Chris. I’m so lonely without you.

There have been people that swear they loved my brother Chris, but have not talked to me or checked up on me once since he passed. Even worse there has been so called friends who treated me like shit. If you truly care about someone, then you’d also care about the person they loved most in this world. When someone dies you see everyone’s true colors.

Hey everyone it’s Ken. It’s been 19 months since Chris went to Heaven. I hope all of you are still gaming and making great memories. I’m positive that’s what my boy is doing upstairs. I can’t wait to join him.

Having a really bad day. I miss you so much.

Chris I have been extremely sad this week. Being without you during the holidays and your birthday just destroys me. I know this doesn’t get easier. I’ll bear it though, because knowing that we’ll be together again is all I need. I will never take for granted all the gifts that God has given me. See you soon, I love you forever.

Happy Birthday @Zuna_Chris the only thing getting me out of bed everyday is knowing I’ll see you again. I love you forever and I miss you more everyday.