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I don’t expect anyone to read this, but maybe someone out there will.
I'm 17 now. I started all this when I was 14. First it was flipping sneakers, then NFTs, then meme coins, then just full blown degen trading.
Made some smart moves, caught a couple early pumps and before I knew it... I was sitting on just over $9 million.
Didn’t really hit me at the time. I was still in high school, sitting in class, pretending to care about chemistry while secretly watching my trades on a second phone. Felt invincible. Everyone around me had no idea...
I was literally making more in a day than most people make in a year.
But I never cashed out properly. Ever. Told myself I’d wait until 8 figures, until it was “enough.” it’s never enough...
I was tripping hard. Got into leverage. Started chasing risk like a high. “Just one more 20x long and I’ll cash out.” I was playing with size that would make grown men puke, $500k per trade like it was a demo account.
Then came that one bad week. You know how this ends.
Market dipped. I overleveraged. Got liquidated. Then revenge traded. I told myself I was gonna bounce back, like I always did. But I just kept bleeding. I lost over $7 million in 3 days.
And the rest? That disappeared into pure delusion.
Now? I’m sitting at basically zero.
No one knew the full number but me. Not even my closest online friends. I pretended everything was fine, cracked jokes, said “I’m just hedging.” But every night I’d just stare at the ceiling thinking about how I fumbled what could’ve set me.
I’m not here to beg. Not looking for a comeback arc. I don’t even know if I’ll ever touch a chart again.
I even thought of taking my life away, would it be even worth it?
Maybe.
At one point, my port was life changing. Now it’s just a memory in my camera roll.
- done, posted.
