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Be safe mooties!

sorry guys i’m fat and american and stupid BURGER BURGER BURGER BURGER BURGER.

I hate my life

My ex showed up at my job (the place he got fired from) and sat at the bar for an hour 😀😀 WITH HIS DAD😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

Literally such an unfortunate body and I still decided to eat a burger today 🧍🏻‍♀️these shirts are both xl btw. In Ross sizes idk if that makes a difference bc xl at the thrift is loose on me 😭

@minafthoneybees I know he's oblivious, he really is a big idiot but it still hurt. But bc he didn't think ab it I don't want to be mad at him but I also literally feel like I'm 22 again eating 500 cals a day and working out for 4 hours just to feel thinner

@saving_sabine AAAAAAAAAAHHHH HIM KNOWING MAKES IT EVEN WORSE!! Maybe he just wasn't thinking, which would be fair too, but I'm sure he's gonna think before he speaks now

I told my coworker I'm hungry and asked what I should get and he said "nothing, you don't need to eat. You know what I do when I'm hungry? I drink black coffee" okay so that's why you're 6'7 and still have pudge? Learn to piss me off on a Wednesday afternoon mf

After this I didn't eat all day and I didn't want to eat today either but I did bc I'm trying to be better about it but immediately after eating breakfast I started balling my eyes out. I hate that my body or eating habits is such a comfortable thing for people to talk about.

@minafthoneybees Exactly!!! He said he was hungry later in my shift and I was like "drink black coffee" and walked away he chased me and tried telling me it was a joke. Like he's one of 3 people that know about my ed and it wasn't bc I told him myself. Why would you say that?

@saving_sabine Talk about being randomly rude??? They should've just said "idk what do u feel up for?" Or smth

@kenleighed I genuinely needed that, it's always the enemy in my ear telling me I'm not worthy of love being as heavy as I am so I might as well binge. I genuinely hate it.

@saving_sabine i saw ur bio, and i know this is so hard for u to go through rn so just thought i would remind u that He loves you too ❤️

He so I actually hate myself so much actually I know o was talking about recovery and I still very much so want a normal relationship w food but this is disgustingly out of hand. BED is a fucking monster this pic is almost 2 years apart

@spacegutzz I appreciate it🤍

@saving_sabine I am so sorry, BED is so hard but you've got this, I believe in you ❤

Omg hit tweet?

Fat indeed invades your brain, I have gotten slower and slower the more I gain weight 😭

@starfirepixie Thank you ml🤍🤍 I hope you find recovery and I hope it's easier for you 🤍🤍

@saving_sabine It’s such an exhausting cycle to be in. I hope you find peace with food and your body🫶🏽

Watching myself slowly lose then gain weight over the past 3 years is eating at me but recovering and not thinking about calories or food is healing my mind

He will heal you in ways you never knew you could be healed. I love you and Jesus loves you and I pray you can see the good in following Christ and turn away from the pain and disgusting culture of religion.

Repent and let Him heal you. This isn't religious psychosis and I won't tolerate anyone who says it is. I am here to pray for and with you if you want, I can help to answer your questions and guide you in the right direction but Jesus is the ultimate teacher.

Please turn to God. I know church may have hurt you or people claiming to be a follower of Christ may have hurt you trust me nobody knows that better than me. Truth is I was SA'd in a church and the memory was too gruesome for me to fully retain it but-