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These ones always makes me lol

My phone throwing up memories, trying to troll me 😹... Taken this time last year. What could have been, aye! I love these guys tho. Debbie is still one of the best people I could have asked to be a local Cllr with. And I know that in our 1 term, we did make a big positive difference locally. Even now, last week I had residents calling me up cuz they found out I’ve been poorly & asking if I needed anything🥹🥹 & today - someone who does the workforce stuff in ASC was so excited to see me in the civic & said at how much I achieved in the 2 yrs I was cabinet person. All stuff she didn’t have to say, but absolutely made my week.

Still full of mucus & killer cough. Still an off-colour. But hoping this is the week we turn a corner! 🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽 also badly need a haircut 😹

This Moment Will Never Happen Again: I made this video nearly a month ago. Originally I was going to record a voiceover explaining an idea I had around it. But the truth is… the idea behind it deserves more than a voiceover. It deserves a moment of its own. Lately I’ve been thinking about a Japanese phrase that has completely changed how I see everyday life: 一期一会 — ichi-go ichi-e. It means that every meeting in life happens once and never again in exactly the same way. The same friends.
The same place.
The same conversation. And yet, never the same moment. Illness has a way of making this painfully clear. The ordinary suddenly becomes luminous. A walk with a friend becomes something astonishing. 
A cup of tea becomes a ceremony.
A conversation becomes something you realise you may never have again. I wrote a longer reflection about this idea… about mortality, friendship, and the strange miracle of being here together at all. You can read it and watch the video here: smizz.substack.com/p/ichi-go-ichi…

Technology is politics. You can't embed Palantir into the army, the police and the health service without embedding its poisonous politics. So there's no place for Palantir in our NHS. newrepublic.com/post/207693/pa…

@LeadWidow 😹 honestly, it’s an addiction!! Forget about smoking & drinking. 😹 give me the shiney’s and special art rare cards anyyyy day! I don’t have much luck with the packs. But yday was 🔥

@smizz My wallet developed someone else's pokemon card problem. I'm hoping kiddos portfolio is as strong or stronger.

May or may not have developed a pokemon card problem…. But today I have pulled these 2 insane rare cards!!!! 😱😱😱😱 My current raw (ungraded) pokemon portfolio is worth $742.34 (very specific lol)

Honestly reading the side effects of clarithromycin makes me understand why I’ve been having the most insane weird deep - but not restful! - dreams/sleeps. Almost hallucinogenic fever dreams with nausea, profuse sweating & awful mouth taste. Proper horse tablets. 🐎

Ya girrrrl still not well. Had a day. Got my nerve damage evaluated. Dr was all so chill about how he just “nicked a nerve… should be ok in 3-6 months” 😱 can’t explain just how much of a quality of life this numb thing this is. He Says Vit B complex & zinc should help speed recovery. if yall have any good recommendations of good vit B complex - let me know! 🙏🙏 Then zoomed back to make GP apt after SOBs this weekend & no improvement since last Abx & Steroids. Had pretty high blood pressure & raging fever. Need CXR, sputum sample 🤢 & getting Tx for atypical infection. Ya girl is pooooorlyyyy. 😭🥺🐦‍🔥

Not gonna lie, yall. It’s been a rough week accumulating into an extra rough few days of scary painful, squeaky SOB. Also now absolutely full of cold to add to my woes 😭. Just laid in my bed trying to breathe and sleep it off. So feeling sorry for myself tally: throat still hurts, Tongue still numb from nerve damage, chest infection not improving despite abx & steroids, now full of cold, fever, & special time of the month to top it off 😹🙈😭 Good news is - this Hong Kong medicine is quite nice & has helped a tiny, tiny, tiny bit. Esp with the throat pain. Which is surprising. Love the packaging 😹

The tax increase doesn’t come into force until next month

I’ve done everything today to convince myself to feel better. I went to work, I made a really good meal, I’ve tried to keep hydrated. But I’ve felt like super garbage all day. and to add insult to injury - I started having non-stop nose bleeds 😭😭 even now. Just to make everything else feel & be a bit more difficult. 😭 welp.

Corridor care isn't a treatment option. It's a dangerous system failure and should be illegal.

I’m feeling so run down atm - even tho my taste has really took a massive hit with the gnarly painful nerve damaged numb tongue, I treated myself to a smizz specia tonight. I make my own proper creamy super tasty tomato pasta sauce. With vodka and a touch of coconut milk in it, chunks of garlic and lots of fresh basil! I know that might sound a bit weird. But trust me, it proper works. Topped off with burrata! Best cheese addition!!

@girlrrys @tomphilip 😹😭😹

@tomphilip roy cropper when he was young x

he looks like he’s about to star in next weeks episode of coronation street

It’s been a week, lads. One of those weeks where the body quietly reminds you that you are not invincible. Where things slow down. Where the edges of life feel a little softer and a little more fragile than usual. I’ve written something honest.
About a vulnerability I don’t often admit out loud. 
About the strange tenderness of being unwell.
But also about something much bigger than that. Care. Because this week I’ve been held by so much of it. In texts that arrived at just the right moment.
In quick check-ins and long conversations. 
In lifts offered, invitations extended, and kindness given so freely it almost takes your breath away. All those small gestures that quietly say: 
you are not alone. I’ve felt it. Every bit of it. And I am deeply grateful. If you’re having a wobbly time too, I hope this piece meets you gently. Sometimes it helps just to know that someone else is learning how to be a little fragile as well. Feeling very lucky for the extraordinary humans in my life. Thank you, truly. 
With so much love and friendship,
Smizzzzzz 💛 smizz.substack.com/p/a-fragility-…

This is TMI but since starting antibiotics- so much gunk is coming out of me. It’s Proper awakened my immune system it seems, alongside the high level of steroids I’m now on, & I had no idea I was harbouring so much infection inside of me. How have I been functioning?!

Honestly lads. It’s not my week. Got nerve damage from my procedure I had & my tongue is still very numb 😭😭 (awaiting further advice) and got a raging chest infection which I’ve had for at least 4 weeks 😭😭 no wonder I’ve not been a happy bunny.

Not to leave yall all hanging but I made it back home! But I look and feel like proper dogger 😹🙈 I’m feeling a bit extra sensitive. I’m still very nauseous & feel absolutely wiped out & in a bit but manageable pain. But most of all, I feel incredibly grateful and blessed to have such amazing people in my life. Thank you everyone. 🙏 now imma sleep for a week, I think.

No messing around today. See you catz on the other side. Wish me luck. 🐦‍🔥🤞🏽🙏