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⋆.˚✮🎧✮˚.⋆ n o v e m b e r ˚.🎀༘⋆ ˙✧˖° ⋆｡ 🎶 starting weight for november: 46.7 kg ⭐️ goal for nov 30th: 45.7 kg *not my pic!!

i gained last week (46.4 kg, part of that’s def bloating, but still) :’[ but i started doing more cardio, so hopefully i’ll be below 46 again sunday 🥴

idk what happened, we weren’t friends, i just know she was a perfectionist. she didn’t even get to graduate, cuz she wasn’t able to come to school anymore 💀

haven’t been online for a bit, how’s everyone doing? i’ve been alright, i found my maintenance cals (1800) n i’ve just been staying under 46 kg 👍 some less fortunate news: an old classmate of mine died, she also had an ed :(

@bl00dnB0nee damn, now i want chicken nuggets, i might buy some tmrw

Should I make shrimp or chicken nuggets

@bl00dnB0nee nuggiess

i might ch0p off my legs if i don’t get my middle splits soon, this is getting absolutely ridiculous

@bl00dnB0nee oh okay, yeah, that makes more sense… i was wondering why they wouldn’t approach someone who only ever comes in to weigh themselves 💀

@str3ss3d0vt_ Nah they know me 😭 I used to LIVE here 1am-4am

My gym watching me weigh myself every other day and then just leave

@skeletal444 u know that feeling when u walk into a convo right when someone says smth that could sound very unhinged to someone missing context (which is u in that situation)? yeah, that’s what i’m feeling rn.

I don’t care how it’s gonna work but I’m gonna get that man pregnant

y’all r abt to piss me off. be so fvcking fr… like bro, i’d eat cake shaped doodoo to be at my ugw.

@NlGHTMR3 this is how ik i’m a big back who has anorexia, i read that as “waterscones” 😭😭 i had my first scone on friday and i’m kinda obsessed now

things i miss most from england (in no particular order) are 1. waterstones + waterstones cafe 2. wetherspoons’ cheap ass drinks 3. greggs pastries 4. meal deals and 5. the big ass sugar free flavored red bulls

weighed in at 44 kg and that’s literally impossible 😭 i’m reverse dieting rn, and idk if i should increase my cals or not- cuz idk my real weight 🙃

@Anesczy i mean that is rlly out of pocket, but like… he’s ur dad 😭 i don’t feel like that’s the craziest thing to ask :>

I told my dad I threw up and it’s not like I never throw up but he asked me if I’m pregnant? DAD WDYM U CANT ASK ME THAT

@escerlin @wastedwannabe bro, i did that, it felt so annoying sometimes, but i’m glad i stayed patient 😭

@wastedwannabe That’s why it feels so rewarding bc you’re really playing the longgg game.. even worse when you have to do a healthy deficit god release me

anorexia is so humbling bc there's nothing you can do to really rush it. you just gotta NOT EAT and WAIT.

@starvedgemini i mean, if u actually feel bad, u might regret not eating more 😭 but if ur worried abt feeling guilty regardless, maybe u could find smth w less cals, but still nutrient dense enough

pls help. will i regret eating like a 400cal meal? i wanted to fast but i feel rly bad physically.

i texted a new friend abt my ed 😭 she hasn’t read it yet, but now i’m kinda scared :>

@stardewy_ comparing urself to sick ppl is actually so crazy that it almost makes me feel a bit sane

sorry to edtwt but i’m probably healthier at 200 lbs than someone who starves themselves to 100 lbs

she’s amazing wth

@ancom_J7 @bl00dnB0nee this… it rlly suprises me how little ppl seem to think abt stuff like that 😭 like i understand i do too much sometimes, and i’m trying not to be so obsessive w cleanliness, but come onnn

@bl00dnB0nee could you imagine how difficult that would be to clean..? and how nasty it would get... oh i can already see the hidden mould and bacteria buildup....

I actually fucking hate that

@monsterultra666 started using my scarf as a butt pillow in class, and so far no one has bothered me abt it… rlly hope it stays that way.

how do y’all cope with tail bone pain