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When your brain feels like it is running on empty and you force yourself to keep going anyway, something real is happening in there. Something measurable. And if it happens enough times, the damage shows up on brain scans. Your brain uses a chemical called glutamate to think. Your cells normally clean it up as fast as it gets made. But grind through hard mental work for hours and it piles up in the planning part of your brain faster than the cells can handle. That pile-up is mental fatigue. The tired feeling is your cells telling you they cannot keep up with the cleanup. A Paris neuroscience lab measured this in 2022. They scanned office workers after a full day of demanding mental work. The hard-work group had 8% more of this waste chemical in the planning part of their brain. They made 10% more impulsive choices. Their pupils went sluggish during decisions. The researchers said it plainly: that tired feeling is a real signal from the brain to back off before the tissue doing the thinking starts breaking down. Push through the warning for years and it gets worse. In Sweden, a Karolinska Institute team scanned the brains of 40 people who had worked 60 to 70 hour weeks for years. The panic-and-threat center was visibly bigger. The wires between it and the calm-down region had weakened, so every bad emotion hit harder and took longer to come back down from. Other long-term studies on job stress found the thinking part of the brain gets thinner. The memory hub shrinks. The reward circuits shrink too. Then there is the feedback loop. Your stress hormone, cortisol, is supposed to be shut off by the memory hub once a stressful moment passes. But chronic stress shrinks the memory hub. A smaller memory hub cannot shut the stress hormone off. So cortisol stays high, shrinks the memory hub more, and the whole cycle feeds itself. Your off-switch is getting worn down by what it is supposed to turn off. This is where a lot of workers are right now. In 2025, US worker burnout hit a seven-year high, with more than seven in ten reporting moderate to very high stress on the job. Chronic job stress is tied to about 120,000 American deaths a year, mostly heart attacks. Some of it can come back. People who get their cortisol lowered through medical treatment recover a lot of the lost brain volume. Mindfulness, exercise, and therapy help too. But "help" is doing a lot of work in that sentence. A lot of the damage takes months or years to undo. Some never fully does. Look at that face. The thinking part of her brain is clogged with a chemical it cannot clear. The panic part is firing louder. The motivation part is quieter. She is running on a stress hormone her brain can no longer switch off. That is what "zero energy but forced to keep going" looks like inside your skull.

Evren sandığınızdan çok daha büyük. O yüzden küçük düşünmeyin, kendinizi küçük dileklere sıkıştırmayın. Büyük isteyin, büyük hayal edin. Çünkü bazen sahip olamadığımızı sandığımız şey, aslında kendimizi ona layık görmediğimiz için uzak kalıyor. Bolluk, aşk, şans, başarı, huzur.. Bunların hiçbiri başkaları için yaratılmış ayrıcalıklar değil. Siz de en güzelini hak ediyorsunuz. Büyük düşünün, büyük isteyin, büyük hayal edin. Belki de hayatınız siz daha fazlasına layık olduğunuza inandığınız an değişmeye başlayacak.

@babufess yok main besok pagi

Cw // Suicide Babu! Halo, tolong.

All of the best things in life require a degree of embarrassment, or at least the possibility of it. Dancing, singing, sharing art, cooking food, having sex, holding hands; there is risk in it all. You could burn dinner or sing off key; no act of self expression or love is exempt from this danger.

Dostoevsky is right, your worst sin is, in fact, destroying and betraying myself for nothing.

well well its a "he"

every time you replace “this is hard” with “what’s the first step?” you shift brain activity from your amygdala (fear) to your prefrontal cortex (problem-solving). that’s neuroplasticity in real time.

“Keep your house clean like you're expecting guests.Keep your heart clean like you're expecting death.”

Ini real banget 🥲 asal usul lahirnya tulisan ini 2 tahun lalu, around h+5~6 setelah lebaran

Nobody tells you that you can just not do the office job. You don't have to. You can work a physical job. It's absolutely okay. You may even prefer it. There's no shame AT ALL. You may even do gig work or remote work and work/earn less to enjoy life more. There's no blueprint. It's all OKAY and it's all up to you!

everything is a win when the goal is to experience

@nanadybs @CorporateHalu hai kak, aku lah perantau yang ke jakarta itu. gada saudara gada keluarga dekat. temen juga pada di jakarta bagian lain lain. aku dukung untuk hire perantau karena di sini kami bener² mempertaruhkan semuanya, jadi ga main main untuk pekerjaan & menjaga attitude di kantor.

@CorporateHalu Aku sering mempertimbangkan hire team perantau yg rela ke Jakarta, mereka effortnya ga main-main jd kemungkinan kerjanya jg ga akan main-main🥲

Lu tau ga apa yg aneh dari para perantau yang baru merintis karir di Jakarta? Gaji sebulan bisa habis "cuma" buat tiket pulang kampung. Tapiiiiii ntar pas udah sampai rumah trus makan masakan ibu, tidur di kamar lama, ngobrol sama keluarga, sama jailin adek atau kakak yang lama ga ketemu rasanya tuh kayak: “oh… ternyata ini yang gue kejar selama ini.”

don't know who needs to hear this, but start living. the days are flying by, and all you do is work, pay bills, and stress. enjoy what you can - walks, sunsets, music, laughter and nature. joy doesn't have to be expensive. you deserve it.

I wanna feel whatever this feels like