rosie! 🥯

need to stop maintaining so I can take new before and afters 🥲 -100 lbs

@choiminhodiet completely relate, it’s so hard to flip flop constantly between wanting to recover n wanting to get worse 🥲

i only just reached the 25s and have lost so much weight but due to my hw/sw i have never been uw, hardly been a 'normal' weight, and feel like i can hardly even relate to other anorexics. i feel so out of place everywhere no matter what, i dont know :/ im so tired

had a really long convo with my best most dearest friend today about how i really do want to get better but feel stuck in place because my ed is my only coping mechanism and i dont know how to properly feel my emotions, AND i also feel like i cant recover yet because +

i finally signed up for therapy for my food issues but tell me why i just immediately now want to go back into heavy restriction? maybe to feel like it’s worth it? im not quite sure

you seem pretty fat for a girl so disordered

fuck going gym and lifting im just gonna starve again fuck protein and calories i can’t do it anymore loool

@lavender_kgs ohhh you’re so right i forget about that! i’ll give that a go over a few weeks and see ❤️

im going crazy im trying to eat more as im lifting more at the gym but my weight is just going up ??? but im still only on like 1500 cal which is still a deficit plus the working out should be helping ??? I fear i just have ruined my metabolism

the holy trinity: prominent collarbones, visible ribs & a thigh gap

so this is the goal

my uncle said everytime he sees me im getting thinner and thinner !!! we love to hear it

@yuki59305211451 me when i was 13 and now im almost 27 🧍‍♀️

i love this genre of motivation

feeling at peace after restocking my fridge with all my meal prep stuff 🤩

god i am feeling miserable today !!! 🫩

i feel so bad because everyone else has such deep reasons for their eds i fear i honestly am just that vain