Anner
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sorry i promised a longer tweet and its been a minute, had a lot going on. i really appreciate all of the kind words and everyone who reached out i wish i couldve replied to all of u but uhhhh my track record with the whole replying to ppl thing already isnt so great and me and my family have been going thru a lot recently.
just around when i was retiring, i learned that id lost my brother. didnt rly wanna talk about it on socials cuz honestly i figured the public outpour of sympathy would prolly do more harm than good for me but im in a better place in terms of sharing now and i feel its my obligatory duty to try and reach the people stuck in the 16 hour ranked -> nap -> repeat cycle. if thats u im begging u to take a minute to go hug the people u care about in ur life and tell them how much they mean to u, its so easy to watch years slip away to the grind without ever looking around and remembering wat its all for. i feel like all i do is speak in dumb cliches lately but the older i get the more i realize theyre all cliches for a reason.
if the 16 hour ranked people are still reading, u might wanna read a couple more lines. it might seem obvious but going thru this really only made it more clear to me that this shit isnt for me and retiring was the right decision, i dont think ill ever want to compete in esports ever again. if thats the only reason u followed this account and u wanna dip thats chill and understandable.
i hoped to have more of a concrete answer in terms of what i want to do going forward for u guys by now but uhh with everything i aint rly got there yet. ive lowkey just been having fun learning new things, writing a bit, most of my time lately been going towards learning flstudio. idk. its been really nice to pursue hobbies that actually bring me joy and give me good thoughts and dont require me to abuse drugs and neglect my health!! its so much easier than u think to just try new stuff and have fun and i dont rly know abt all this yet but i feel like the voice in ur head that keeps going "u suck at this and u need to be the fucking greatest like yesterday" probably gets quieter the more u pursue things for love and passion. ill get back to u on that tho.
i have lost my train of thought. iunno i think im just gonna keep taking some time to find things that bring me joy and perhaps some day soon i will make something that i feel proud of enough to share with u guys, or perhaps i will decide that all of that isnt for me and ill leave behind some sort of insane rambling manuscripts or something to be found decades after my death in a small cabin in the woods somewhere. might turn the stream on to yap and farm some shitty arpg at 5am occasionally if thats chill.
u guys are awesome and if u truly love esports thats awesome but just remember to take a minute sometimes, ykno? and also maybe its really important to have other things in ur life that bring u joy just in case this shit ever stops and u dont know wat to do with urself. later for now
sarah@sarah_frags
ggs to swimtrek, well played 🫡 i fear that might be the last time yall see me in the server, or at least for a while. been a long time coming. passion machine ran dry, this shit obliterates ur mental and physical health, and i fear there’s really no getting over the “im providing negative value to the world” brainworm. think its time for me to try something else, dont really know what but ima figure it out :) ill be around here and there, mayb tweet some dumb shit, mayb turn the stream on once in a blue moon…. really won’t be much different i’m legit writing this post match so i’m sure there’s about 10000 things i want to say that i won’t get out rn, might make another tweet at some point, but mostly i just wanted to say thank you to my teammates for being so patient with me as i’ve struggled these past few months, and a big thank you to all of the people in my life who got pushed to the side for this stupid nonsense…. i love u guys lots, it’s been really cool getting to be kind of a somebody for a little while but that’s about enough of that for now. never gonna forget any of u, whether we keep in touch outside of da game or not 🥹 for one last time, god willing: 0.1 ingame 1600 dpi no accel hyperion soft lamzu inca/g pro superstrike
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@alexisfps how are you so funny and cool and beautiful and also so good at this game what the fuck
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my first trip overseas, thank you to everyone who made it such an amazing experience 🫶
@alexisfps @melanji @NoiaFPS @karnthc
@sarah_frags I was in awe of your performance on stage and know you will only come back stronger 💛
I love game changers, until next year
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Anner รีทวีตแล้ว
for those of you who are unaware or who were preoccupied, we just got to witness one of the greatest if not the greatest GC Champs tournament ever (in my opinion). watching my girlfriend work day in and out, pouring her heart and soul into practice and matches - is a type of feeling that you can not easily explain. i truly am so proud of her; the way she works, the way she fights through any phases, the way she overcame all of the mental struggles.
i can’t put it into words, what she’s accomplished and what she has proven to the world, it’s something unexplainable. it’s something that should inspire everyone, not just myself. i love you with my entire heart and i hope you find yourself proud with how well you’ve done and how far you’ve come over this time. i know that today maybe wasn’t your day, but i promise you that there is no one more deserving than you - even the rest of the SR girls - you all proved you deserved to lift another trophy. there will come another day, and another after, where you will continue to find your success.
you’re incredible, always have been and always will be. don’t let this shed your light, you’re the brightest star.
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