шин ݁ᛪ༙ is fatchudmaxxing

can you believe i let him down i cannot too

@p3psimaxx NO BC I SEE THE VISION 💯💯 YOU'RE GORGEOUS AS HELL THO 🫶🫶🫶

i dont think i really do but yeah

im really sorry im a bad person for not responding to everything but i've been doing bad lately honestly. and im forever grateful to all the people who always react to my yapping and make me feel seen all the time. you're just fucking awesome, you mean the world to me

also starting to realize that whenever im stagnating and live without some at least small changes happening all the time i tend to lose all motivation and my life starts to suck x10. makes me want to save money and move countries asap 🫩

@wrathwavemusic yeah!! i wish 🙏

@cttmhz budi naš balkanac

i want to move to serbia i need to start saving money

yeah getting the same haircut i had a year ago made me realize im not the same anymore. and it's always crazy to me how fast my personality changes and makes me mourn the previous versions of myself that can never be brought back again. i fucking hate nostalgia so fucking much.

well i will continue to hope and delude myself that im im the 15s already to feel better for eating a lot lately 🫩

i feel like im making up excuses to not starve but i've been so fucking tired of life lately so i can't even gaf like i wish i could but i literally can't. i'll never be best ana anyway so fuck ts and lemme do low res for a while. or more. i lit dgaf.

@ViolentBeth me too lol 🥀 i used to force myself to hit my water goal every day but now it's sm worse because im lowk tired of having to hydrate myself and it pmo rlly bad rn so it's already a win if i get like 1.5L a day 😭

@cttmhz i mostly drink something just to prevent my self from eating i've been eating a looooot recently and i feel sooo bad

noo tummy aches now after being fine for a while fml 😔😔😔😔 tummy ache i sad

i really don't care like i actually don't. i can't bring myself to do it im literally tired of being alive so i don't feel like torturing myself with starving to feel even worse rn

@ViolentBeth awww that's why i try to avoid drinking these when my tummy aches but fortunately i love tea and have lots of it during this hard times 🥹

@cttmhz Everytime i have a tummy ache i drink a monster or coffee just for it to be even worse 😻

idk man what is even the point if i get 0 motivation to lose the weight that i've already lost like 10 times. my mindset for now is just try to continue being as nonchalant about wl and do low res and not freak tf out if possibleand walk more for mental health 🫩

i wonder what my weight is but i ended up eating at night so im not checking it anytime soon 🥹

@liz_dying WBBSHAHQHQ thank you it made me feel better, i'll try ;') 🖤

@cttmhz say this to ur tummyache tell bro to stay away from you >:(

i really need to cook some comfy savoury meals for myself, i've been craving it for so long but couldn't bring myself to do it because cooking is exhausting and im too hungry so i always only eat low effort no cooking slop 😔

being ugly is genuinely painful why do i take damage whenever i look in the mirror

it’s such a pain 😭

@dis0rderedsumi WOWOWOW YOU'RE SO COOL AND CUTE AND BEAUTIFUL HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

turned 21 today 😛 dad took me to olive garden for dinner and i lowkey ate SO much i was uncomfortable and then at the bar my last shot of patron did me in and i vomited but i was lowkey relieved

so annoying to see ppl sayin BED is just a lack of control as if that’s not what all eds are. like omg yesss my brain is forcing me to walk for three hours or i freak out yesss i’m so in control 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😭😭

@cottonxanny ur so fkn cool holy style ily🙏

dream bag just came in the mail LUL ive wanted this bag fer YEARSSSSS xD