raye☕️

intro :) (not new ed) ☆ raye ☆ he/him🏳️‍⚧️ ☆ 19 y/o college student ☆ AN-b/p ? ☆ love nature, art, and rock music ☆ a fat fucking chud that loves to lurk but oomfs are awesome❤️ #moothunt #edtwt

and it's not even gonna be a good purge because it was unplanned so I probably won't even get out half! fuck!!!

btw I binged again like 800 calories I don't wanna purge oh I don't wanna but I have to there's no way I can keep it down

on that medical marijuana daydreaming about an alternate life without ever having an eating disorder

hi guys I'm high if I comment odd things under your posts it is just my whimsical mind at play

@soleilastarves omg lemon and blueberry is such a good combo I think french toast will win the vote but consider wisely...

which one … they all sound yummy

@tauntifer goodnight hawke I hope your dreams are full of unicorns

okai good night I love u!

@Etta_coffeebabe that is so scary, I'm she had a good reaction, I hope it really goes best for you❤️

I am actually shaking right now I just confessed everything to my mom after she caught me purging again and I am so scared holy shit I don't know how to deal with this

not having a good day. btw I ended up binging not that much before I purged my dinner. I'm scared I left behind more that I can manage god I'm so fat

@Kitleeeee thank you!!😁

@ghostivyleaves Btw your artstyle is so awesomesauce and looks very very cool. Idk just. Yeah

I am trying my best to sustain a portion of myself

@Kitleeeee that's what I hope :( I wish you luck on trying to fight this. I just want a small sliver of who I was before all of this but addiction is so hard

@ghostivyleaves I’m in the same boat as you. 52 hrs free and it’s everything is meaningless and boring but it makes me hopeful that if we continue this way and try to renew interests in old hobbies they’ll become important to us once again and b/p will become less desirable

oh my god I am terrified to go see my family over the summer they all better say how skinny I am or I'm shooting up this damn farm

@puke0al did you bring enough for the class I'm getting hungry

how to stop being fat

I'm gonna do 20k steps so I can have an extra 100 cals cool

@beckstaa an american spirit to avoid the binge urges is the story of my life

smoking instead of binging… really trying to get this under control before I need another infusion or worse. Last night was awful genuinely I’ll post pics at some point but I was up b/p from 8pm to 5am bruh

walking 2 hours and playing block blast to get "a plain bagel with nothing on it please. no haha yeah just by itself" for my omad #flowstate

gonna relisten to this for my walk today

how it feels to eat anything

@willeatmyself it makes me mad but I think our generation has learned to not comment on bodies. only 2 friends in my ed history has ever said anything and 1 knew it was from bad actions

actually pissed asf that nobody irl has said anything About my WL except for my family saying I’m losing too quickly 😐😐😐 BUT I just casually mentioned something to my mother in law AND FINALLY ! she told me she thought I looked great when I came in today 🥺🩵🐇🐇