Marc Lou@marclou
I spent the last few days away from work, with my family, working out, and doing normal IRL things.
A few things became clear.
1. Making money was never the goal, but somewhere along the way, revenue became the score I look at. If I make $80k/month and the next month $70k, I feel bad. Nothing changes in my life; I barely spend the money, but my brain only sees the drop. I even feel uncomfortable writing this because I know how lucky that sounds. What I actually love is still going from 0 to 1: building something, shipping it, seeing it exist.
2. My 𝕏 account changed my relationship with people. I never thought it would grow past 10k followers. Back when a few hundred people followed me, I knew names, had conversations, made friends. Now there are 300k people here, my DMs never stop, and every post gets read in a way I don’t control. I feel grateful for it, but I also miss how simple it felt before. I'll spend less time trying to answer everyone, and more time having real conversations with fewer people.
3. Work follows me everywhere. Ideas, products, things to improve, things to fix. It gave me a lot, but it also sits in my head all the time. Even during a walk with my wife, part of my brain is still building something. I don’t know how to turn that off. But I don't think I want to anyway; obsession is what brought me here. I just have to live with it.
I haven’t built anything in 2 weeks, and I already miss it!
Maybe that’s what a break is supposed to do?
