M͓̽e͓̽c͓̽k͓̽e͓̽r͓̽ₘᵤₜₜᵢ 📢

I threw myself into psychotherapy and mind-body stuff like brain-retraining and meditation as soon as I was dx'd with 'Conversion Disorder' - by a Neurologist. It seemed highly unlikely to me that what was going on was 'psychological' and not simply post-infectious (given that I had had Dengue and did field work in the Tropics) but I had had some recent trauma related to student gun violence and thought maybe it was a mind issue. I was a tenured professor of Biology at the time - giving international invited talks and supervising dozens of students and teaching huge undergrad courses and small advanced graduate courses. I was publishing and getting grants and doing field work and working my ass off and loving it. Life was an adventure. For 3 years after the diagnosis I Iived and breathed meditation and CBT and GET and brain re-training. I followed doctors suggestions and took anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds and later even antipsychotics. I was going to recover. There was simply no other option I was willing to entertain and if the experts said this was the way - well.... of course I jumped on the bandwagon. Having conversion disorder was a much better option than an incurable untreatable invisible mystery disease. Unfortunately, during this period I kept declining and finally I was bedridden and severe - unable to care for myself and had to move in with family and sell my house. I was in my mid 40s. It was not until I started treating my dysfunctional biochemistry, pathogens, mitochondrial dysfunction, and hypometabolism that I began to stabilize and my baseline began to increase. I wasted years on mind-body interventions - years that I could have spent focused on recovering from post-infectious dysfunction. I truly believe that if I had been given the right diagnosis to start I would not have declined to severe and lost my entire life. Its so crazy - its like these bozos think we didnt try all this stuff. Many if not most of us have tried everything - from God to psychedelics and everything in between.