MissColourz@MissColourz
Hey guys, I need to apologize.
In my last three clip dumps I had some clips that had aim assist.
Some of them were using a program called rewasd, which lets you play mnk with aim assist. This was a really stupid thing to do and a massive mistake but it also came from a place of not understanding the full consequences of my actions and placing impossible standards on myself, trying to always be the fastest or flashiest and constantly trying to get gameplay.
Ive got thousands of hours of clips of me on mnk and controller across many diff games on my socials and streams and while it sounds silly no matter how much I improve its never been enough. Doing what I did reflects poorly on not only me,but also those around me and this community. I wanna apologize to you guys as well for that and its the reason im making this post, to take accountability.
When I first tried it I was just looking for a way to live up to the standards I put on myself, and in my head, it was different than cheating. But when Laura and June came to me and called me on it, that's when I realized what I was doing. It didn't click to me right away that what I did was wrong because it "wasn't using aimbot or wallhacks". I understand now, and I'm so sorry for letting you down. If you can't support me anymore I totally understand.
Ive also left RIN and wish them nothing but the best theyre full of great aimers and great people. Those 3 clip dumps are the only instance of having aim assist clips and I will never use or post anything about it again and promise everything else ive ever posted is native mnk.
If you made it this far thanks for reading and I wanted to add a specific apology to both Laura and June. They both came to me and called me out on it which would have been hard to do to a friend. I respect you both and the friendship we had has been great and i know youlI both do great things with rin.
I will be taking a break from social media because it has been stressing me out way more than it should, and ive been having my mental health decline stressing over numbers and feeling like i HAVE to post or make videos or if i dont get xx engagements im The Worst Human. Not to mention staring at a screen from morning to evening and not touching grass is affecting both my physical and mental health.
I love playing video games and always have and I just want to get that spark back again and not have it feel like work or be constantly disappointed in my own performance. Much love - jadey ❤️
