Rachel Haywire

What’s vicariously embarrassing is witnessing someone discovering occultism for the first time. Have lost the patience for this in general.

@JutlandGhost That’s not wrong.

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You go to some downtown parties and suddenly someone thinks you’re the reason for all of their problems and hundreds of people you’ve never met hate you, but do you remember how good you felt in that photograph?

@dumbbitchzine This is a lot to think about. I really appreciate you sharing it with me too.

I had a similar experience. I abandoned things like that for a while. But now I’ve come back around to it and integrated it. Why? How? Because I realized that some of the toughest villains in this world can only be outsmarted or overcome by “frivolity.” Humor and absurdity are just as much of spiritual weapons as magick and alchemy. They are respiratory spiritual functions that have a transmutational effect, like forgiveness/love/gratitude. When you figure out how to integrate the silliness with who you are now, you’ll be more sophisticated and more unstoppable. Discordianism heavily inspired my own imaginative world of mythological symbolism. The whole point of it is to show that 1. You are always creating myth, you are living in one 2. The symbols can be whatever you want them to be. Maybe you see a kind of freedom in frivolity because that’s exactly what it can be for you, and now you’ve refined yourself to where there is no risk of you descending into total meaninglessness. You can afford it.

I’ve realized that I envy frivolous people, yet it’s an uneasy contradiction. I long for their ease but don’t admire how they’ve achieved it. In fact, it disgusts me. So how can I envy what disgusts me? This feels uncomfortable.

@AlexCaswen The earnest answer is that we were visionaries looking into the far future.

@AltCulture Why is it always “The World” and never something achievable, and real

Growing up in the Epstein era of TED Talks, I became deeply suspicious of people who claimed they wanted to “make the world a better place.” Too often it turned out to be branding, status, or a disguise for something much darker. Now I miss the people who genuinely meant it. Not the performers. Not the moral entrepreneurs. Just the earnest idealists who actually wanted to leave the world better than they found it.

I tell myself that if I write a good marketing campaign I’ll eventually get a mainstream publishing agent, yet feel a natural suspicion to people who have these types of agents. Even though I’m an agent myself, it’s not the same because I do indie lit. I don’t have an “in” to mainstream publishing. Yet I don’t want to feel a natural suspicion toward people just for having mainstream publishing agents either. I need to get over that. I know I need to get better at world-building and become more concise. I can’t chalk this all up to not having gone to the right school or misunderstanding social cues at dinner parties. My writing actually just needs to get better.

This is going too far. Marketing can be very creative. You can use your writing skills to create a unique marketing campaign for your work. Being anti-marketing is a kneejerk reaction to bad marketing. The true divide is who has an agent at a mainstream publishing house.

@GraduatedBen I used to go to skydiving a lot and really miss it.

I wish there was still a frontier you could just ride off into, some open space not yet owned, boundaries unknown, an experience of a great unknown in life, now the last great frontier is death

@dumbbitchzine I think you nailed it with the last sentence. I never thought of myself as frivolous, but I was very influenced by Discordian culture growing up and made light of everything because this was my subcultural upbringing. I feel like this caused me to miss out on a certain depth.

Why were you frivolous once, and what made you reject the frivolity you once had? Not saying you shouldn’t, just asking for the sake of the exercise in exploring. Maybe you’re not really envious as much as sometimes burnt out from the stress of keeping your integrity? Sometimes it can be hard to accept that “meaning” and integrity is personal, and only really matters to you. It’s hard to watch others be rewarded for things you had a strong conviction to overcome

@insurrealist Don’t ruin it.

Thank GOD people have mostly shut the fuck up about rhizomes these days

@ARIKAHENRY Wondering how and why we put up with it before now that we know what it’s really like.

The content feed has improved by leaps and bounds. I want to see what my connections are feeling, good or bad, so that I can be there for them like real friends are. I do not want to see some narrow topical range that AI has determine I may be likely to interact with. Vast Improvement! 💜

I’m seeing posts from mutuals I thought deactivated in 2024. It’s quite something.

@rachelclif Running out but let’s get into this more soon. There are so many discussions to be had on it.

@AltCulture I love how different we [all] are! and I’d love to hear more about what you mean by “performative superficiality”, or what “performative superficiality” means to you are you implying that it [the appearance of superficiality] isn’t real, or something else? appreciate you :)

It’s only this brand of frivolity that I’m objecting to and not the loving playful kind. It’s kind related to social climbing is what I take issue with. We may have to start distinguishing between different types of frivolity. 😂 As for people being carefree and having a life easier than me, I don’t envy that at all. What I envy is the people who got to where they did because of their performative superficiality. That’s what disgusts me that I envy. It’s also, admittedly, something I did when I was younger that I may still be wrestling with. This is such an interesting discussion.

I don’t really know; I don’t think I’ve ever thought about frivolity in this way. I think the thing that’s touched me more than anything (wrt envy) is perceiving people to be more carefree than me, or to have things easily that I’ve had to work for. and they’ve touched me because they are tender for me — because I want (and would want) those things for myself. I appreciate you asking and this conversation :)

Episode 3 of Invisible Front will be airing soon. I spoke with my co-hosts Raven Connolly and @HeyPeterClarke to firebrand writer and classical illustrator @megha_lilly. Why did Megha trigger so many people simply for criticizing a popular children’s book illustrator? Let’s go.

@rachelclif Good question. My immediate answer is performative superficiality. How about you?

@AltCulture how do you define frivolity?

@AntipatternPC Very well stated.

@AltCulture Agreed. I think teaching everything in terms of power dynamics poisoned how people even think about improving the world. A lack of innocence without a gain in wisdom.

@SebastianKomor I still remember the day I took all my piercings out and declared that not having piercings was the new piercings. I’m unsure if not having tattoos makes you stand out now because the alternative scene is a bubble. Still, you nailed it. Being original is what is truly based.

@AltCulture In a time when being original is being based. Kind of like standing out by not having tattoos or piercings.

Some people want to be “based” because they are unable to be original.

Who wants to build a beautiful data center with me in Tribeca?

@orcbrandronin @kojimaicmatters Sounds like you. 😂

@AltCulture No, this account was banned so I switched to @kojimaicmatters which got bigger than this one, so I didn't return to it. But now that one's banned. So I returned here.

Trump-sama launch a fraud investigation into X.