Crazy Cancer Lady

Of the ‘Hi, I’m dying of cancer’ books I’ve read, I would most recommend ‘When Breath Becomes Air’ by Paul Kalanithi and ‘Late Fragments (Everything I Want To Tell You About This Magnificent Life)’ by Kate Gross. Both beautiful, crystalline reads, neither strays into mawkishness.

@AmaliaSouthey Melatonin. It’s a conventional medical prescription but of the chemical your body makes to bring on sleep. I find it really good because you don’t get dependent on it, it’s not addictive and it just gently gives you a push into sleep rather than knocking you out.

Natural sleep remedies? I have gone off sleep tabs and have not slept for 4 nights in a row. All the hot baths and chamomile tea in the world dont help. I literally count sheep and get nowhere. I take CBD oil before bed too. I wish I could sleep like a normal person!

@JamesBarry1789 @thenursemattie @Sianysianyboots @cassesque @LaraRixon @bindelj @PeterTatchell @Lungbarrow1 Ooh, literally x 2 also!

@thenursemattie @Sianysianyboots @cassesque @LaraRixon @bindelj @PeterTatchell Oho, RATIO! @Lungbarrow1 @CrazyCancerLady a peach!

@ShehasMBC @Michele_Miller7 @ThanksCancer @jenhowse @PanCancerCanada @letswinpc That’s why I can never understand people mentioning cancer in their obituaries/death notices. I’m making NO mention of cancer in mine. It ruined my life. Literally. My obituary will be about me and my loved ones.

There is so much info out there on what to call everything to do with cancer. Do we say treatment or do we say chemo? Do we call it a journey? Do we call it a battle? Is there such a thing as cancer etiquette? @ThanksCancer @PanCancerCanada @letswinpc #stage4 #PancreaticCancer

@coccinellanovem It’s both useful AND anxiety-inducing. Nothing makes dying easier, I’m discovering. My brain won’t be quelled. 😒

@CrazyCancerLady Aside from being annoyed by the quotes, are you finding any of it useful?

A non-cancery tweet. I’m getting fed up of writers starting each book chapter with a quote by another writer or a philosopher or whatever. It’s so overdone at this point. You’re writing a book yourself, trust that your words are enough.

@joslyoung That’s exactly it!

@CrazyCancerLady I know what you mean. It also leaves the reader feeling a sort of pressure to take away some kind of profound message from the writing, when they mostly just want to read and think the ideas over for themselves.

@suequinnaziz Well, I have terminal cancer, so…

@CrazyCancerLady Oh my love. It is. But completely understandable - treatment can be so gruelling.. Where would that leave you? Xx

I’ve had so many kind private messages sent to me. Thank you for them all. 🙏 Things are touch and go for me right now. I’m hospitalised after AC chemo debilitated me. Big decisions re: whether to stop treatment altogether are in the offing. So that’s my update. 😕

@coccinellanovem I’m not sure enjoying is the word. Lots of books about my predicament. 😒

@CrazyCancerLady Which writers are you enjoying at the mo?

@DottyBoo Working on those things but accepting that I need them now is scary.

@CrazyCancerLady Wishing you the outcome that is right for you. I need to ask if you have seen anyone from a palliative care team? They can bring hope and a quality of life.

@suequinnaziz I’m leaning towards ending treatment. Which is terrifying. 😞

@CrazyCancerLady So glad to hear you're OK... ish. What are your thoughts? X

@sqwawk So sorry, Neil. x

It really brings it home, the fragile state in which I live as a Stage4 cancer patient, 3 years post dx, when someone at work who I advised about Prostate Cancer chemo when they were newly diagnosed 16 months ago, has just died... #fuckcancer

@teaforpterosaur To make me do this: 😭

True dat. 😆

@MeghanSacks That is just so rude. That person has no self-awareness

I like to think I’m a pretty understanding person. Especially since cancer. But OMG WHY ARE YOU LISTENING TO YOUR AUDIOBOOK ALOUD IN A WAITING ROOM ⁉️⁉️⁉️

@mskatestafford Yeah, if I’ve persevered with the book, it’s the author’s words I’m interested in, not anyone else’s.

@theiasshole Fair enough! 👌🙂

@CrazyCancerLady I like it because it gives me a clue for what to expect in the chapter's theme sometimes.

@girltimeintl Oh my god, EXACTLY!

@CrazyCancerLady Agreed. Do they think I'll remember it long enough to remember its cryptic relevance halfway through the chapter?

@BettySea_ @BigBillMoon I was most fascinated by her description of how the church appeals to the child’s natural sense of ego and self-centredness and wanting to feel grown up to hook them in. Bastards.

@CrazyCancerLady @BigBillMoon Yeah, some of her stories are awful & also those who were formerly higher up in the church. Don't think I ever truly got how people could get so sucked into it until the church of gender came along.

If Tom Cruise was playing down the bottom of my garden, I'd draw the curtains.

@BigBillMoon @BettySea_ 🤣🤣🤣

@CrazyCancerLady @BettySea_ You know how Scientologists always go on about that alien fella Xenu that they believe in? I reckon that’s Cruise.

@BettySea_ @BigBillMoon Leah Remini has great insight into the church and its recruiting methods. And she’s an interesting case in that she didn’t join as a celebrity. She joined as a child when her mother married a Scientologist. She touched on Cruise being treated like a god.

@CrazyCancerLady @BigBillMoon Have you ever seen him being interviewed about scientology? He's such an explosively angry little man. I reckon his "friendliness" is just him high on a god complex bestowed on him by cultists.

@BettySea_ @BigBillMoon Actually, no. 🤔 Okay, so he actually gets angry in interviews? Yikes!