Ray Alex Williams

As some have predicted, trying to repress my AGP has not worked, even with the Catholicism. It has been a constant struggle. I'm tired of battling my own desires. I want to go back to integration and crossdressing. I don't know how to square this with my faith. But I don't care anymore. Repression doesn't work. It just led to endless binge/purge cycles. I gave repression my absolute best shot. But I cannot do it anymore. AGP is a core part of me. There's obviously the sexual kinky side, which I enjoy, but there's also the side of me that just genuinely enjoys more "feminine" interests like women's fashion, makeup, beauty, skincare, etc., and wants to openly incorporate these interests into my life and how I present myself, whereas as a "conservative Catholic detrans man" those forms of expression were not available to me. I have no interest in re-transitioning via a gender identity or adopting new pronouns again or anything like that. I am firm in my knowledge of being a man. Been there done that. Neverthless, I see a future where I am free to crossdress to my heart's content and embrace my sexuality. I simply love women's clothing and fashion too much. My whole life I've loved women's clothes. I don't know why. Can't explain it. But a future deprived of that seems bleak to me. I know some of my more GC oriented followers are going to bristle at the thought of me once again bringing my fetish "out of the bedroom." But I don't really care what GCs think anymore. My once hardline GC position has somewhat softened, especially insofar as it concerns AGPs expressing themselves publicly. I don't really care if it's considered "shameful" or "perverted" by some. Moreover, I still believe in common sense. Haven't changed my mind on sports, child transition, basic reality, etc. But I feel like I am reverting back to a more "liberal" position of letting people express themselves so long as other people's rights are being protected, even if there is a degree of "ick" from male sexuality. And I've come to realize 99% of the philosophical debate around "are trans women women" is verbal dispute, like almost all philosophical debate over the meaning of words. It obviously has real-world implications that are important, but the philosophical debate itself doesn't interest me anymore. Nor do I feel myself aligned with GCs against trans as this all-encompassing civilization-ending boogeyman that sucks up all my time and energy. I've grown tired of the whole GC debate. Some will say this is now just obviously self-serving. But, again, I have stopped caring about what GCs think. Last, I want to address the accusation that I am a flip-flopping, flighty, unstable zealot who goes from one extreme thing to the next looking for an emotional crutch. Yeah, pretty much, lol. I got called out accurately. Everyone who predicted Catholicism was a temporary crutch to cope with my gender feelings can now feel vindicated. However, I do want to say that my faith beliefs were genuine. It was all genuine. It really was a struggle. It really was a beautiful journey. And I still consider myself Catholic. I still believe in God. Obviously, I don't know how to square my newfound liberal convictions with conservative Catholicism. But I will square that circle later (somehow, maybe).

Current AGP escalation risk: minimal I decided I’m just going to find a real transsexual and live vicariously through her.

I don't know why these people are so obsessed with denying me my right to self-identify as AGP. I've been pretty honest about the fact that I sometimes get aroused at the thought or image of myself as a woman, and that that was a factor that led me to crossdress and transition.

@WinterPragma @Lightstream01 youtu.be/kxhLu5G0FV8?si…

@RayAlexWilliams @Lightstream01 Do you have a link to this interview?

@TrueSwagMessiah Embrace your best brick self hon 💋❤️

@RayAlexWilliams Thank you for giving me the inspiration to stop repping ❤️ I understand the consequences of it now

Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who’s the brickiest of them all?

Autogynephilia is a disease of sexuality and identity. I do think medical and social transition can be a legitimate treatment, in some cases. But it’s been far over prescribed, and the personal and social consequences have been dire. Bring back gatekeeping.

@hstslarp @anglefraudgf I'll have you know my angles were acquired through legitimate means

@RayAlexWilliams @anglefraudgf

@LeorSapir And let's keep in mind that "young autistic nerdy boys" showing signs of gender dysphoria are likely AGP as well, not just boomer transvestites.

Fair criticism of the HHS report: “Unfortunately, neither the Cass Review nor the HHS report addressed gender dysphoria typology, likely to avoid controversy. Transgender activists and their allies have attempted to suppress discussion of both autogynephilic gender dysphoria and ROGD, preferring the incorrect account that all gender dysphoria is fundamentally similar and begins during childhood.“

@EismanJana19096 You are speaking my language :)

@DollPariah Have you tried morning light therapy?

I took 3 mg melatonin to fix my sleep schedule and slept 10 pm - 1 am then 3 am to 6 am and 7 am to 5 pm. Not since Christ has anyone suffered so much.

Soulpassers and dolls can get special accommodations in society. All bricks must remain crossdressers. These are the new rules.

Nonpassing trans women should be discouraged as much as possible from taking on female social identities that are legally enforceable under anti-discrimination laws. Bring back Real Life Tests, Gatekeeping, no informed consent, stricter diagnostic criteria, triage for HSTS, educate therapists and clients about AGP, dont make it illegal to do anything but affirm self-declared subjective gender identities, make crossdressing less stigmatized, encourage disclosure prior to serious relationships, make it possible for institutions to kick out creeps and bricks without being sued for discrimination, fight against online reddit egg culture and pink pilling, destigmatize detransition, etc, etc, there's so much that could be done

@lulu_solomo @bobopsi @datadriven_tdoc my long term strategic goal is actually to have as few nonpassers using female spaces as possible, but go off

@bobopsi @RayAlexWilliams @datadriven_tdoc And even if I accept there isn't a lot to be done about truly passing trans it's still reasonable to be disgusted by two men overtly discussing how it's a rhetorical tactic ultimately aimed at letting non passers in too. TERFs called this "the thin end of the wedge strategy".

It is morally innocent for a man who can easily and stealthily pass as a woman to use female spaces, especially if he’s had bottom surgery.

British TERFism has lost its cultural relevance to the vanguard of right-wing politics and will likely return to its roots: as a small but vocal minority of radical feminists particularly obsessed with trannies as some kind of weird special interest with an intellectual lineage tracing back to Janice Raymond. The GC movement was a necessary correction to the madness of hyper-woke trans progressive activism. But the underlying radical feminist worldview, which powered much of the initial wave of gender critical debate, is a dead end philosophically, politically, and culturally. Most people don't spend all day obsessively hunting for examples of the worst troons on the planet, and when they meet a decent trans person in real life, normal people realize that they're just human beings, doing their best, trying to cope with the weight of human suffering like the rest of us, and mostly have a live and let live attitude and care about paying their bills. Likewise, the progressives using trans people to push woke critical theory has no resonance with your average American. People just want common sense. There are legitimate social critiques needed of mainstream trans activism and how it's been implemented into all sectors of society. But we cannot even begin to have a productive conversation if we don't realize that much of the GC movement traffics in caricature and extremist policy positions equivalent to using a sledgehammer when a surgical knife is actually needed. I think we're all tempted to give simplistic answers to complex questions because whatever can fit into a tweet does better in the discourse than any kind of more nuanced, practical conversation that gets into the nitty gritty of accomodating transsexualism into different social contexts on a case-by-case basis, in contrast to the TRA all-inclusive approach and the GC all-exclusive approach.

@EismanJana19096 I'm specifically talking about a very recent cohort of young men joining traditional movements. The specificity is important for a reason. Also, "spiritual repping" is an intentionally broad category and not necessarily just sexual in nature.

I'm kinda convinced the recent rise of traditional Catholicism and stuff among young men is just a form of spiritual repping. Catholicism has a long history of repping. Just look at the Desert Fathers. Those guys drove themselves insane in the desert trying to never masturbate.

@lulu_solomo @datadriven_tdoc I don’t. I like talking with intelligent freethinking people.

@RayAlexWilliams @datadriven_tdoc One wonders why you have such a desire to interact with these women so intellectually inferior & below you. 🙄