Moment of honesty for no one to see while this page goes mostly unnoticed… Tomorrow I’m going to see chainsaw man. I’ve delt with severe isolation and loneliness for a while. Lately tho movies have felt bittersweet to go to alone, I’m not alone in that feeling, but with work separating friends, family and myself alike things get more and more tight schedule wise. Going out alone is getting more and more depressive as it was never different for me. I never had the phase of a socialized environmental even precovid. My circumstances had me alone majority of my life, single mother, only child, empty neighborhood etc. could be worse but isolated environment fucking suckksss after 16 years of it being mostly just that. With only a job as the reprieve. Characters like Denji hit home for me for obv and less obv reasons. The lonliness especially tho. I don’t have a pochi/pet either unfortunately. Ik how this movie ends and I also know how imma feel coming home slick relating to denji how he’ll feel in this movie. Not looking forward to that… but “for every 10 movies typically 1 is really life changing.” This whole series surely 1 of em for me. So imma be there. One day I’ll be smiling after seeing a movie alone. Maybe tomorrow, idk… WELL ANYWAYS Catch yall later.
