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@horromantic start with this book: drive.google.com/file/d/1Z243Bj… and then from there look at this google drive: drive.google.com/drive/folders/…

@nyanqueer_wren endogenic was coined to explicitly mean formed without trauma. iirc the coiner was pretty specific that if your origin is from trauma (not where you develop alters from later) this is not endogenic which was intended to mean literally anything other than trauma

Discovering I'm literally considered an endogenic system,???? OH MY GOD BRO. 😭???? Are we serious. AS IF I DIDN'T HAVE MY IDENTITY ATTACKED ENOUGH. This cannot be fr. There's no way.. I'm so tireddd.

@angstyweebsys amen brother

@documense 4% bald…. Hmmm…. How many of those are ACTUALLY bald though and not bald fakers who just think they’re bald? 🧐

want to see what categories my followers are in hold on. do you have/suspect you have something complexly dissociative going on

@BeatleZombie ice cream is very good for this as well

@documense When I had noro I had a big water bottle full of ice cold water and between heaves I would just chug that shit. Soothed my raw throat and when it came back up it didn’t hurt because it was just water

does anyone else kind of enjoy the sense of purpose u get when you have plenty of heads up you’re going to frow up so you can get your affairs in order

if you take issue with any of my posts written tonight rest assured that my mind is already conjuring smashing machines with which to grind my essence into dust. if I do not survive I will simply be recycled #zerowaste #enviromentallyfriendlyb

@saturninemage really big agree. fretting over fakers always makes me a little sad bc I’m like bro. that energy is NOT going to make your life easier

@documense Applies to pretty much all psych disorders for me ^

@MageVivika I wanna be clear that this is the extremely condensed version of how it’s thought to develop and that anyone reading should not use anything I have said here for anything other than a jumping off point for further individual research

@MageVivika many children are not capable of handling the whole “sometimes my caregiver harms me” vs “I rely on my caregiver to survive” paradox. those realities are not compatible, so like adults with trauma, these parts stay walled off and unprocessed

@saturninemage at the very very least the status of me having or not having is pretty stable in balance between “I do and I don’t” with all parties involved resolving to “I do” for convenience sake

@saturninemage appreciate this and that you are intentional about this response given in the absence of validation seeking! if it helps, I’m looking for the google reviews of the worldwide famous restaurant Documense and less the approval of a famous critic or influencer

to be clear i am not worried about whether or not I have DID, I am curious as to the status of the outward reception of me as a whole and if there is any commentary on this subject. I’m looking for “I have or have not noticed xyz” and am not worried about my #validity

I need to sleep but I’m afraid to for some reason );

@blue_rookery a lot of people here also can’t tell so you’re not alone in that at the very least. are you in my discord server? we could parallel play sometime in a vc

@documense i wouldn’t be able to tell. it’s one of the reasons i don’t have any friends, i assume. i’ve always had a hard time parsing personality. i just sort of engage with people as they present at any given moment? it also makes me very vulnerable to abuse. but brain doesnt seem to have

man they gonna put me in the blender for the way I be talking about shit tonight. I’m probably gonna get straight up turned into soup imma be real

@miquellah really good to hear this

@documense i definitely have BPD and the dissociative aspects of that but anything further im like. well i dont knowwwwww. but then i remember what u say about “does it even matter the specifics as long as u focus on helping integrate urself in general” and im like ah yes, so true

@withuhteethuh knocking on the door of your private account LET ME IN

@documense I think I've been following you for like a year or so, maybe more or less (can't remember lol) but I also follow you for the people/replies you bring in, because I also find other's takes interesting because then that prompts me to pqrt and do a little thread of my own on it

@woof121206 I am structurally designed to ignore my own reality 💅

people who cannot read the room DNI with this post

did yall know that sometimes I think that I don’t have DID and that I’m just playing along with other people who think that I do. what’s that about. I literally think it’s an act sometimes. like haha yeah ok sure I sure do have it! you got me!