one guy. maybe more

@horromantic start with this book: drive.google.com/file/d/1Z243Bj… and then from there look at this google drive: drive.google.com/drive/folders/…

when you front and reach for something and it feels slightly borrowed or when a reaction happens and some part of you goes "that's not how I'D do it"

@plantosfalsos I might have been confused idk but basically like “within the system”

intrasystem sex can and does happen

cant tell if im losing touch with reality or if "did you not call me today because it was going to rain so you didnt have to worry about your plants but you arent worried about me" makes me feel fucking crazy and stupid

sorry idk what went wrong with me there my bad

i fall back on a few constructed lenses. ones i can say "i feel like this is who i am" but really its much more "i am this thing because thats whsat my brand is," you know? itrs not that complicated once youi get reaslly into it, actually. i domntknow why i ever thought it was

i imagine my DID very much like a bunch of different lenses but a large problem with this is that often there are dozens of overlapping lenses and i cant be sure that at any given point i can maintain a stable configuration/pattern of lenses/perceptions

:| — literally how it feels tetratto.com/posts/33KAr9QB…

@deftonesravioli @z45wb3 36

@z45wb3 @documense which version did you do? the recommend one or the longer ones?

thinking about the response to me sharing what my results were from a "which character are you" quiz that has over 2000 characters

mustn’t krill myself. krilling myself is the myself killer

must not krill myself. krilling myself is the myself killer

@lanonome furry

@documense Why the hell did I get an animated robin hood character 😭😭😭

I genuinely don’t know if I’m losing touch with reality

this is not a joke I think I might be experiencing a mental health crisis

Born too soon to buy a house born too late to I think I might be having some serious and genuine mental health issues that are causing me to regularly lose contact with reality

i think i genuinely might truly no joke be sick in the head and have something seriously wrong with me

you cant go saying "i could sure go for some killing myself right now" anymore these days. because of woke

i swear i prommy theres a long ass aswer pleas just clikc the link to get to see it dont just take this short answer as the full one

i feel like im literally never going to accept being a system...what else am i supposed to do??? — don't try to make yourself accept an experience you don't have. even I don't identify "as" a system. I don't "accept" it, either. [Read More] tetratto.com/posts/33JsixjN…

@hollerite_vt i understand this.

@documense my body somehow managed to just shunt its suicidality away by merging all of the suicidal desires into one horribly depressed alter, and then he just never fronted again. Zero desire to die since then, hes just holding it all

DID is so stupid like sometimes "have you tried being a guy who doesnt want to kill himself" is actually the answer