Nil

If I'm following you, it's because you're a trader that I've learned useful concepts from, or find inspiration in the thoughts and experiences you share. I've found those from both thriving and struggling traders with a wide range of experience and strategy. I am on the struggling and less experienced end of those spectrums, having explored many strategies, but only beginning to find traction with what works best for me — after endless screen time and seemingly endless painful lessons. I've been stubborn. I've been reckless. I've been hopeless. But I've never lost belief in myself. If I can conquer my demons, I am certain I can succeed at this trading game. So maybe I'm just delusional. But I can't quit. That is just not in me. My only path is humility, discipline, and improvement. The ships have been burnt, but I'm not dead yet. Onward. This post is the beginning of what I intend to be a documented disciplined climb out of what has been the lowest point of my life, brought on by the degenerate hell that any risk taking pursuit can bring if one is not careful. For me, trading is very much a "me versus me" pursuit, and for far too long I allowed the worst parts of me to win — some parts I didn't even know existed before trading. It has taught me a staggering amount about myself, after a point in life where I had felt pretty sorted out already. If you've actually read this far, I appreciate you spending precious time and attention on my rambling. Please reach out, if you're inclined to. Part of me dispatching my struggles (progress?) into the void of X is a hope that I can make mutually meaningful connections with other traders.

Preparing my mind for NQ/ES roll week price action shenanigans.

@BeefDayPepe @TakeProfitLLC @AlphaCapitalUK @thepipfarm @QuantTekel @FunderPro @fnfutures @E8Markets @MyFundedFutures This is inspiring man. That struggle is real. 🤝

With this latest payout with @TakeProfitLLC , I have actually done 6 figures of payouts with 10 different firms 🥳🥳🥳 The 10 firms are @AlphaCapitalUK @thepipfarm @QuantTekel @FunderPro @fnfutures @E8Markets @MyFundedFutures (CFD+futures) @TakeProfitLLC .... and unfortunately I have to list 2 of them as scam firms @tx3funding (CFD+ futures, and scammers still owe me 30k) @thefundedtrader (I didn't get scammed as I stopped buying when I saw something amiss, but they rugpulled everyone else) I know your first reaction is probably that of me "capping" or bullsh*tt*ng , and I don't blame you for that, especially if you don't know who I am. After all, I've only started posting payouts from October 2025 Birthday Pepe is actually sort of an experiment, as I wanted to see if I'd be paid as a nobody, with no social presence. Only my closest friends knew who I am from the start, and I guess with time, some of my followers have figured out my identity as well. Yes, Im TiltBoyBenny for those who have been wondering where I've gone or fizzled out 😆 For those who didn't know my story, ********************* On Feb 10 2023, I received my first ever prop payout with TFT. Prior to this, I was unprofitable on personal brokers for years and unprofitable on @FTMO_com for 2 years. I was driving uber 12-13 hours a day, 5-6 days a week, just so I could spend half of my income on 2 x 100k challenges a mth. I spent 23k with FTMO without getting a payout in those 2 years. My biggest strength was to never give up, together with a burning desire to achieve my dream of trading fulltime. This was the only thing I want to be doing, travel frequently and trade while being on vacations. I wasn't going to accept anything else. Its kind of hard to believe, but in 3 short years, Im now living my dream. I made the crucial decision at the end of December 2022, that I'd stop driving Uber entirely, and focus 100% on trading because working 12-13 hours a day wasn't helping me in my trading. With only 7k usd in my bank account, I had to make it. If i failed, it meant back to long hours of work everyday. Fortunately I did it. I remember it was 3 x 200k challenges I bought, I passed 2 and got to 2 payouts of 12k and 13k with TFT. Was kind of life changing money to me, especially when it meant 7-8 mths of salary. I then went into a losing streak in March and April of 2023, losing back half of that 25k of payouts. I picked myself up again, learned some important lessons (which was to lock payouts and not go for homeruns) and started getting payouts from May 2023 again. Since May 2023, I have never had a losing month to date 😁 My total payouts are now at 2.1million USD, with nett profits of almost 1.7million USD after expenses, which also includes going back to FTMO and making 53k payouts with them, putting me nett +ve with the firm. For all you haters thinking I had it easy or have no common sense thinking I had 400k in my bank to "churn and blow" right from the start, it was really just 7k USD that I started all with. I have effectively reinvested and scaled 7k into 1.7million of nett profits within 3 years. The difference between you and me is that I didn't look at leaderboards and payout posts from other people and think of all the reasons to belittle their achievements, or put it down to them having the capital which I didnt have. I thought of ways on how to be more efficient on my uber driving so that I can increase my income, even if it wasn't by a lot. I knew I had to first work for money, before I let money work for me. I wasn't interested in giving myself excuses as to why people are making it and Im not. Today I am very proud to share this achievement with all my friends and followers, and I've done this all without 1. selling courses 2. shill affiliate codes 3. scammed anyone to have that unfair and immoral edge of funding my evaluation fees I've even managed to become profitable on my own personal account (low 6 figures) I'm also proud to say that I have helped people in this space get their payouts, without asking for anything in return I am extremely grateful for prop firms to exist, especially the 8 of you (I wont thank the other 2 scammers) who have all played it fair and paid me life changing money And finally now that the reveal is out, I can't wait to start following all my old friends again 🥳

@dontbsalti Honestly, looking back, the “gutter slut” girls were always the realist ones.

Typical gutter slut Sunday activities. Lowkey freak in the sheets u know what I mean. I will be adding $SPX $SPY $QQQ OI into Substack. I’m working on these excel spreadsheets. I will also be covering Nikkei and $CL + precious metals for this week. Busy Sunday gotta monitor the situation and write a newsletter.

Dads will always be dads, no matter how old their kids get. I'll be house/dog sitting for my parents while they're traveling. Dad messaged me that he's installing i-bolts above the patio, so I have somewhere to hang my gymnastic rings while I'm there. 😊

@ramb0shi Do you get to sleep fine when you're fasting? My sleep always goes to shit.

I did my first 3 day water fast this week, I'd recommend it. Feeling hunger and not acting on it is a great analogy to feeling the urge to do something in trading while staying disciplined.

@TheQueenofKa Dude, and you requested via Wise!? "1-3 business days" my ass!

Does it take more than 8 days to get your live money out of your live broker? Asking for a friend.

@TheQueenofKa @Topstep Were those other passed evals and payouts also with Topstep? Or are they with other firms? That's so crazy if you've received following payouts from them while still waiting for the first to be processed... and still a very bad look on them if those payouts were from others.

@niltrades_ @Topstep Ill be eligible for a new payout before the first one gets here. For context I have passed 4 evals and gotten 2 payouts in the time i have been waiting for this 1 small payout

Dear Journal. The year is 2026. It has been 7 days since I requested my @Topstep payout. Climate change is starting to take effect. Icecaps are melting. I even hear rumor that GTA 6 was coming out soon. If anyone is reading this I have long passed by now, Chicken has feasted on my remains and is now roaming the wilds. If someone sees MP tell him to send my family my payout when it comes and that I always kept jabbin. Signed, Your friend, Araya🫶 Disclaimer: I have not raised a ticket because it say up to 10 days. I am a little surprised however how "Gumshoepickleprop" pays out in 37 minutes and Topstep takes longer than the life cycle of a Lunar Moth. 🦋

@TheQueenofKa @Topstep Damn. That's frustrating. I'm halfway to target on some new evals I started with them this week. First money I've spent with them since they removed Tradovate. Seeing all the payout delay complaints now has me wishing I opened those new accounts with anyone else.😑

@niltrades_ @Topstep Yes still waiting!

@XyzeeeTrades @Nick4ATick Who do yo think gave him the course materials? Nick is a white van agent saboteur.

@Nick4ATick You really gonna do this with that white van parked outside your house?

Look what Daddy Did. No $400 crayon lines here. Like and Repost. I'll release it next week.

@dontbsalti @lanto_trades @CFTC @FTC Salti's energy lately. 👏😆

@lanto_trades Again he also publicly stated said he only spent 20k making @CFTC and @FTC job easy there w that one.

Can mr.planto @lanto_trades please explain to me why total transaction numbers and then the total expenses are different in the different screenshots he posted? shouldn't totals be consistent? so he took 8 tries and still couldnt get the math right?

@Nick4ATick @XyzeeeTrades @thetastowe42 @LeoTheTiger Those inside joke nuggets.😂 Who's driving the van, Nick?

Chat hit 400 likes. So here's the Teaser. Coming soon with the boys. @XyzeeeTrades @thetastowe42 @LeoTheTiger

@ramb0shi But IB been around since the pits, hasn’t it?

So IB is now the latest strategy... 2022 / Silver Bullet iFVG Now it's IB

@dontbsalti @TheQueenofKa Trader ladies relentlessly roasting whiny underdeveloped broccoli-headed grifters… I’m here for it. 🍿 New fetish unlocked.

@TheQueenofKa Ka !!! Stop being jealous !!! 🤣😭 Planto going to call ninja to do something !!!! Bahahahhajajaja

Cooked 🤣🤣🤣 798 PA Evidence of cheating the system I will hear none of this how good these "traders" are ever again.

@fractalfirm Justice for Darnell 👻

I think they should give this poor guy a break.

@jayalxndr How about fuck Tradezella. I'll sign up for PropFlow today.

i’ve tried holding this in and not talking about it, but i’ve spent close to a year building something i genuinely believe helps traders. then tradezella’s ceo signs up for my site. then his developer. a few weeks later, an “addition” gets pitched that looks an awful lot like propflow. i get it. business is business. competitor research is part of the game. but when something you built starts gaining traction and a much bigger player suddenly tries to muscle into the same lane, it doesn’t feel like competition. it feels like someone trying to shove you out the door. nonetheless, still building. still shipping. clarity was always the point.

@AeroGennic @DanielleFong The aliens are definitely part of the pedo ring.

@DanielleFong Anything to distract from the Epstein in the room

come on

@XyzeeeTrades How tf did I miss this 😢

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@fractalfirm I used to be in the @orderflowlabs discord, but not for quite a while. I was curious about @PharmD_KS's process, so I joined his and have been enjoying the crowd in there. Pharm is smart and heavy with the humor, which seems to establish a good vibe.

@niltrades_ I've been meaning to give discord a try. Which server(s) should I join?

Trading can be very lonely. X trader feed can be very annoying. If X is town square, a good Discord is the local pub. Better conversations, friendlier, funnier. Even on days you don't make money, at least you can make each other laugh.