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@deceptivedream do you use nicotine patches? i'm planning on trying them soon for brain energy, mood etc.

...which is still a waste of time. apart from super cognition, I can't wait for super vitality as well. this stupid human body isn't good for anything.

I can conquer the world if I have a good 8 hours of sleep.

@daybower your mum died?

@onaran__ i am not?

mom is dead now

im literally going to conquer all the ugliness and incoherence of this earth

@evalladen This might partly explain why some people like reading novels and some don't, immersing yourself in fiction requires romanticising life in some way

NPCs lack the romantic frame their view of life has been reduced to a utility function the world is a slot machine

@MelRoBuilds i love your vibe, public service indeed

Gentleman always apologizes for the internet creatures' bad behavior when tweets go viral. He's fully aware I probably shouldnt be on the internet in the first place. Situational requirement. The internet creatures should feel shame. They dont. We are doing public service.

@nosilverv experience

If u had to define life in one word, what word would that be?

@inkolore_ Lmao based

LMAO

I like Schopenhauer but honestly I skip all the parts where he starts talking about women, because it seems kind of obvious to me that there's a lot of shadow stuff that taints his vision of them, such that even if he might make good points in isolation, his energy is just off.

non-autistic: spends years sharpening their thinking, learning to communicate clearly, growing the courage to speak directly in order to relieve their interlocutors from playing guessing games everyone around: omg what an autist

@Meaningness @frideswyth i mean you're pretty handsome brother so you shouldn't be too mystified xD

@frideswyth I'm rereading my diaries from the late 80s/early 90s. I was flagrantly unintegrated emotionally (lots of self-diagnosis and self-loathing about that) and also everyone within a ten-mile radius was falling in love with me. I was baffled. Rereading, I still am. Utterly mystified.

At the stage of emotional integration where ppl easily fall in love with me

@SterlingCooley i think poor posture and weak neck muscles are an overlooked issue, especially in their relation to dysautonomia and the kind of issues vagus nerve stim and ultrasound etc. help with

@onaran__ Heck yeah ! I love anything physicality related, so important !!!

Neck training: vanity, or vital? Most see it as aesthetics only. More fool them. I found a neck training system. Yes, the "Iron Neck" looks ridiculous. Yet, spinal health is no joke. Cervical issues will sideline you. The system felt clunky at first. But I dialed it in. Now? A pillar of self-care. Rotational resistance is key. Ignore neck strength at your peril. You have been warned.

how dare you be yourself and express yourself authentically in this moment unapologetically! i spent years teaching you to do exactly the opposite!

@Ruesavatar Mini emotional outbursts like this work well for adults too, helps you persist if you just complain when u feel like it

My daughter is struggling with her art, so she started crying, laid on the bench where she acted like she was going to throw up, and finally angrily exclaimed she will never make art again. Then she picked up her pencil and started drawing again. Clearly the soul of an artist.

maybe one thing i can conclude right now is that: in this current moment, i don't feel ready to be myself.

@inkolore_ i think emotional intelligence / theory of mind is underrated in this regard,eq feels necessary for recognising your own bs. you need to be willing to reflect on your own patterns and recognise them cognitively, but also have the eq to interpret those patterns in a nuanced manner

IQ isn't anywhere near as important as the ability to recognize your own bullshit. What's the point of being "intelligent" (in the very narrow ways which allow us to measure it) if you only use it to maintain your own echo chamber and disregard anything that doesn't fit it?

@hermittoday mishima

every object you can point to creates a “me” (by virtue of being “not me”) except for the one called “me”, this one refers to nothing

the psyops are quite burdensome tonight

@orphcorp could look into MSK Neurology / Kjetil Larsen's work on thoracic outlet syndrome, TMJ-D, and neck issues. i reckon u probably have thoracic outlet syndrome, Kjetil say it's very common and i believe it

ok let's try this for some years now, I have been struggling with persistent fatigue (that does not improve with sleep), joint pain & muscle tenderness (workouts also cause notably slow recovery), persistent neck/shoulder/upper back tightness & tenderness (neck pain improved slightly with Sarno), and of course broader inability to focus (been diagnosed with ADHD). I have learnt to work around it, but it still feels like I am operating at ~20% of what I can. Some bullets: - No single notable event/cause - in my early 30s - Sleep apnea test only suggested borderline sleep apnea - I have chronic allergic rhinitis (histamine intolerance?) which likely contributes to the apnea and causes long bouts of mouth breathing - Frequent bloating, either with or without meals - Sugar cravings - I am a bit overweight with persistent visceral fat, though I also have fairly high muscle mass - Sweat easily, some degree of heat intolerance - Have MTHFR genes - Vit D is persistently low (~15), B2 was low (2.5μg) though I assume some of it might be stored in fat tissue - Homocysteine was at 13 last year, now lowered to 11 - HRV stuck around 20ms - Paradoxically strong glutathione status overall - Fecal secretory IgA very high (>7500mcg/mL) - Very high presence of gut bacteria across the Bacteroidetes phylum (Bacteroides uniformis, Phocaeicola vulgatus, Barnesiella spp., Odoribacter spp.) - Energy metabolism comes out low across Citric Acid, cis-Aconitic Acid, Isocitric Acid, α-Ketoglutaric Acid, and Succinic Acid - Older glycans test showed high levels of inflammation Things I have tried: - AIP diet for four months (slight improvement in focus, RHR went from 69->63, but otherwise no big felt improvements) - MTHFR supplementation, with no felt improvements - Supplementing 10g creatine daily (no felt improvement) - Tested negative for SIBO and Candida - Thyroid looks good? (latest labs with FT4 at 1.43ng/dL and TSH at 1.0400 μIU/mL) - For ADHD tried ritalin, and it notably only worked the first time, then stopped (I cannot try heavier stims due to having the Long QT gene) - Meditation (helps) - Antihistamines in case of histamine intolerance (no felt improvement) What I can’t figure out is: Is this primarily: A) Sleep-breathing/autonomic-driven B) Gut-driven inflammation C) Methylation + B vitamin related E) Some combination of all of the above If you’re someone who’s dealt with a similar cluster (fatigue + ADHD dysregulation + gut issues + high-ish homocysteine + low D + borderline sleep apnea), I’d genuinely appreciate any ideas or insight into what to try next.

learning to feel emotions and unlearn helplessness also seems to help you learn to listen to your intuition. like your intuition and emotions work synergistically together