Sam Lock

I did a blog! About the day we lost @kimberleystjohn. It's pretty candid and raw (and poorly written), but I found it therapeutic. I promise later instalments will be more uplifting... Part 1 of carrying Kim's torch forwards: @samwlock/and-now-the-darkness-3bc8dfb418d4" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener">medium.com/@samwlock/and-… #bemorekim

#swimforkim #bemorekim @jesaintjohn @SamWLock @lovell_natasha @scarlettnash84 @Lizzie_Lock_

@Antonialynch @kimberleystjohn @RUHBath @jesaintjohn @GSTTnhs @helencmeehan 💛💛

Today we remembered @kimberleystjohn at our EOL & Palliative Care Committee @RUHBath supporting the essay competition in her name. Kim was a wonderful person & ambassador for nursing. Thinking of @SamWLock @jesaintjohn & colleagues @GSTTnhs today #1year @helencmeehan

UK nurses/student nurses - A wonderful opportunity to write bravely about something that will affect us all. Sometimes sooner than you might think. Wonderful team put this together. Kim's legacy rolls on 🌻💛

"You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life. " 4/4

"After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function." 3/

One of the most beautiful passages about grief I've read, from an anonymous poster on Reddit, called GSnow. Read it countless times over the past 11 months. Sharing because it might help someone else out the same way it has me: old.reddit.com/r/Assistance/c… 1/

@RachBrandreth @FranWaldock @kimberleystjohn That's very kind! Thank you

@MsSwitcharoo Thanks Ritu 💛💛

@SamWLock Oh Sam everything I’ve read about Kim over this past year has shown what a wonderful warm & caring person she was. Your thoughts and openness have also helped so many. I just wanted to thank you & let you know our thoughts are still with you x

(warning: candid) It's been one thing to try and stumble through a life without Kim in it. It's another thing to remember back to that hospital room and to have witnessed the exact moment that her heart stopped beating and that she ceased to be alive. 1/3

My family are the reason I survived that day.

Family WhatsApp, 11th July, 2020. Kim's stroke occurred 35 mins after her final message. She died less than 8 hours after mine. A surreal snapshot in time.

@HethertonNykki 😢💛💛

@KatiaCole1 Thank you. Sending loads of strength 💪 xx

@jesaintjohn 💛💛💛

@SamWLock Aww Sam 😢I’ve been exactly the same. I can feel the build up to that awful anniversary approaching fast. Lots of love 💛xxx

For some reason, the memories of those final minutes seem to be etched into everything I see at the moment. It feels like it happened yesterday. 3/3

Kim had what I think she would have described as a good death. She was peaceful, sleeping, surrounded by people who adore her. But it's not like it is in the movies. People don't seem to talk about how quickly the skin changes colour, or how quickly the hands grow cold. 2/3

Turns out there WAS a whole lotta grief lying dormant through quiet lockdown. Feel like it's just starting to wake up along with the rest of the world. As present as day 1. Weird. 6 weeks til the year since Kim died. Reckon it's gonna be a bumpy ride.

A wonderful, reflective read about our @kimberleystjohn, and what "a good place to die" really means. Thank you @bisclaire ! 🌻

Received these in the post this weekend from @LifeDeathWhat @anna_eol_doula @poetic_endings! This book radiates warmth. Everybody should read it. For those wondering why I got 2, I didn't. One's for me; the other one's for Kim. Anna wanted to make sure she got her own 💛