zaj ☭ ⚦

oh it's fun now that i am rubbing my hands together evilly and putting the boys back in the blender for five chapters straight.

me talking like this matters and not the pieces i should be learning if i ever want to try and get gigs anywhere ever.

all fun and good until ur trying to nail the french impressionist upbow flying spiccato stroke on the g string with ur bow that hasn't been rehaired since 2024(kill me)

being very vulnerable but not enough to bother making a priv bc i know this is a #,safe space

the fact that i struggle to write sex where a dick is not involved is probably a reflection of my personal body issues but we'll worry about that when i have the wherewithal to see a sex therapist or somthing idk.

one day i will have the confidence to write t4t hollanov but im not on that level i fear.

@wolfbirbs literally what i picture when u tweet.

@the_chlorinator this is how *I* look at oomfs #birbrepresentation

this is exactly how i look at oomfs #autismrepresentation

the witch hunt crowd are awfully quiet these days.

oh 😃

i should not be seeking a beta reader for my next fic i need to finish THIS ONE first(four of 9 remaining chapters mostly written, only five to go and i have them planned) pls yell at me guys.

mind you, some of us (fic readers) will wait months or years for new chapter from you because it’s okay to take a break. and some of us (fic readers) would beta-read for you or help you with translations or some specific things for your fic. you don’t need to use AI. just saying.

@whimperingilya u might be the last person on earth coming up with original sentences actually.

until my queefs sound like their names

@the_veriest_ real i just dk who to ask bc i write insanely long works every time 😭

I really miss having an established beta reader that I had a relationship with who I could always go to and I really want to have that here 😭 but I keep asking people and it doesn’t work out. Like, I would love to have somebody to bounce ideas off of for my WIP.

@wintrsvanilla currently drafting an AU where he's a terrible white ally and shane has to learn to set boundaries in their friendship and hayden has to learn to stfu and listen.

@wintrsvanilla IKTR 🗣️🗣️🗣️

i hate hayden pike

@smolSyrupaddict if no one else got me i know aims smolSyrupaddict got me 🗣️🗣️🗣️

@the_chlorinator rooting for u

trying to write an insane abstract chapter i feel like my skull is splitting in two rn.

@wolfbirbs heartbroken knowing that even if season 2 is excellent(my hopes are high) it just won't be pure heroin from a storytelling standpoint like s1...😞

rewatching the cottage episode and thinking abt it’s emotional resonance and catharsis, and also abt how we probably aren’t going to get a S2 episode with that tonal structure throughout the whole thing. that episode is like crack okay. the most beautiful falling action ever.

@smolSyrupaddict what if i put them in the emotional blender(again)

*whispers* okay so what if shane and ilya