Ryan

This is getting ridiculous. The Crowd is going so low in January. * approximate, plus processor fees (.8%-3%)

I have total aphantasia. About 1% of the population has this. It means I have no ability to see images in my head. Zero. Total blackness. I can't see my children's faces when they are away, but I also can't be traumatized with PTSD/intrusive visuals. I also cannot daydream. Though I can dream visually while sleeping - about half of total aphantasics can still dream in visuals so I guess I'm lucky there. Fiction books are painful as I can't visualize the story at all. There are no colors. No visuals. No imagery. I get total blackness on any dose of psilocybin. But ketamine gives me amazing experiences that are also unique to being aphantasic. At the same time, I process data at a blistering pace and it drives me nuts when the rest of the world is so much slower. Normal persons will take in data, render imagery, filter the details, then take action... I simply take in the data and take action after near immediate processing. There is no imagery, no rendering delay. This is extremely apparent when I'm around others in person. I've learned to calm down and wait, which is hard as aphantasics are notoriously impatient and easily frustrated by this. Trying to train someone at the office is agonizing due to the processing speed differences. My wife has learned deal with it and understand my frustrations - and I work hard to remain calmer! Funny as well, when people giving a speech try and draw out visuals with metaphors and superficial details, we also become really impatient "get to the point man"... As it's agonizing stripping away all the visual nonsense that we can't process. I haven't figured out of it's a gift or a curse, either. One of my kids has it, the other doesn't. It's good to know, as it's helpful to understand why reading is so painful for my aphantasic kid as one example. Anyways, hope this was interesting!