Jenna Taylor ♀️

I need to say to everyone in the trans community I have direct knowledge that everything this teenage trans girl claims is 100% accurate. I did not participate in any of what she says happened but the people involved were well aware of what they were doing and they had acknowledged it to me on multiple occasions. I was not fully aware of depravity of what this girl went through until after she had removed herself from the group of people involved. I found myself feel extreme internal conflict having been made aware of this stuff and Im terrible sorry Cherri you were a victim to this kind of behavior and people. I know I was deeply involved with these people the past few months and I have a lot of things I need to explain and take accountability for, and that time will eventually come, but for now the very least I can and need to do is validate this girl's story.

Between this and our DMs. It's painfully obvious to me how much you rely on the exact social framework I've called out to tell you that what you experience is valid, traumatic for you, and to help you feel less insecure in your womanhood. I believe you should engage in what I've said in this post and ask yourself if what I have said could help you. Anyway, You've repeatedly dismissed my lived experiences and made attempts to reframe my lived experience straight to my face. You've repeatedly denied that the social framework I called out exists, yet you have also attempted to defend and preserve that framework multiple times, literally even in the next sentence after denying it exists. Even when you were given receipts of your engaging in such legitimacy testing of whether I was appropriately experiencing dysphoria and the trans experience, you attempted to deny that the framework existed, whilst attempting to reestablish it. You and that group have spent the past two weeks legitimacy testing me. You can deny it happened, you can frame it as simply asking questions, or you can tell me I'm "making stuff up," or "crashing out about our breakup", lol, I thought that was funny btw, yeah, that legitimacy testing and social hierarchy framework exists, and it's not just unique to that group. I know my interpretation and feelings on what happened to me over the last two weeks in that group is 100% accurate, considering the number of quiet observing members of that group who have reached out to me to say they recognize what I've called out happened to me, and they felt sorry they were fearful for not speaking up when it happened.

I wanted to clarify something about my last post, because I know that some people are reading it as me minimizing others' trauma. That's not what I'm doing. I know what trauma feels like. I lived it. What I'm speaking about is how I learned to process trauma differently. During my transition, I was also a full-time Gender & Women's Studies student whose academic specialization became rape culture, intimate partner violence, and trauma processing. I interned at a women's shelter, became a licensed victim advocate, and spent years studying not just trauma itself, but how women psychologically survive it. The framework through which I learned to understand trauma was fundamentally a feminist one. I was taught through decades of feminist scholarship, survivor advocacy, and trauma-informed theory that healing is not just about acknowledging pain. It is also about reclaiming agency. I learned frameworks that helped survivors separate: What happened to them, from who they are, and from the story they choose to carry forward about their life. That changed me profoundly. It taught me there is a difference between: "I suffered" and "My suffering must forever become the defining truth of who I am." For some people, trauma becomes central to how they understand themselves. That is real. That is valid. But it is not the only healthy way to process trauma. I chose to process my past in a way that allowed me to reclaim authorship over my life. I do not deny what I went through. I do not minimize it. But I also refuse to let it become the sole defining framework through which I understand myself. When I look back at my younger self, I do not see someone weak and shameful. I see someone who adapted under impossible pressure. Someone who endured. Someone who survived. That is not me dismissing suffering. That is me refusing to let suffering be the final word on who I am. There is no single "correct" way to experience dysphoria. And there is no single "correct" way to survive it psychologically. Some people collapse under it. Some people compartmentalize it. Some people fight through it. Most people exist somewhere in between. All of those experiences are real. What I am rejecting is the idea that people should have to perform their pain in one socially approved way in order to be seen as authentic. I think that framework is psychologically very harmful. And honestly, one of the most tragic things I've realized is that many people were simply never taught that they are allowed to process trauma differently. They were never taught that survival itself can become a source of self-respect rather than shame. But it can. You can acknowledge trauma without building your identity entirely around it. You can honor your suffering without remaining trapped inside it forever. You can survive something horrific and still choose to see yourself not as broken, but as someone who endured and lived to tell a different story about their life. That is a framework that feminism gave me. And it is the reason I can look back on my life not only with sadness for what I endured, but also with genuine pride in the fact that I survived. And most importantly, I lived to be able to tell a different defining story about my life than the one I was originally given. This is the framework that I live my life by, how I have processed the trauma of my dysphoria, how I have processed my transition experience, and it is how I have given myself a different way to live the rest of my life.

I've spent the past few weeks in spaces online where there's an unspoken ritual around what it means to be a "true transsexual." And the truth is, it's not really about identity. It's about performance. A ritualized performance of suffering used to gatekeep legitimacy. Who was the most visibly feminine. Who couldn't function as a boy. Who avoided sex. Who was the most socially and physically fragile. It becomes a quiet competition over who can prove they suffered the most, and most importantly, suffered correctly. That standard isn't neutral. It's extremely psychologically harmful. It tells people there is only one acceptable way to have lived through dysphoria, and if your experience doesn't match it, you'll be questioned, scrutinized, and pushed out. I do not fit that script. These spaces routinely test the legitimacy of every aspect of your transition to have you prove yourself if others suspect you. I have found myself frequently on the receiving end of these tests lately. Here is a photo of me as a 17-year-old. A competitive athlete. Someone who trained hard, showed up every day, and pushed myself to perform. What you do not see is that I was in a constant internal crisis. I was dealing with intense dysphoria that I didn't yet have the language to understand. But my response to that wasn't to collapse. It was survival. I leaned into what was expected of me. I tried to perform masculinity as well as I possibly could, because I genuinely believed that if I could just do it well enough, the dysphoria would go away. I pushed myself socially, I pushed myself physically. I built a version of myself that I hoped would fix what I was feeling. And now, looking back, I do not feel shame. I feel respect for my younger self. Because I do not see a victim. I see someone who survived. Someone who adapts under pressure. Someone who showed up every day and found a way to keep going, even while something inside me was deeply wrong and painful. That is not a lesser experience. It is no less real. It is not less "transsexual." It's just not the version that gets rewarded in certain online spaces because they measure your legitimacy by how well you perform pain and suffering. There isn't one correct way to survive that kind of crisis. Not everyone breaks down in the same way. Some of us endure differently. And I am no longer interested in participating in a system and social framework that turns suffering into a hierarchy and passes it off as authenticity. I know what I lived through. And I'm proud of the person I see in this picture, even then. I didn't fail. I decided to fight. And I was able to survive because of it. I am more than happy to not be considered a "true transsexual" if it means that I do not have to live my life seeing myself as a victim of circumstance, but rather as a survivor. And not being expected to make a performance out of my pain and suffering. That's a far healthier psychological framework to live your life by, and the best part is that it does not require the constant legitimacy testing by others.

I speak about things like sex and gender so often because I'm intellectually stimulated and passionate about such concepts, how it relates to my lived experience, and the feminist theory behind it. Hence why I ended up with a degree in it. Sorry if I bother you by posting about topics Im passionate about.

Lol nope, people like Jenna and you definitely think you're special because y'all never shut the fuck up about it.

I took some time today to step away and reflect after a pretty intense group conversation. I’ll be honest, hearing competitive sports described as a “male-coded” passion didn’t sit right with me, especially given my background as a competitive athlete. Sports weren't a hobby for me. They were the one place growing up where I felt safe, grounded, and like I had something to hold onto, something that gave me hope in my darkest times. So framing that as “male-coded” feels less like neutral analysis and more like it narrows what’s considered acceptable womanhood and femininity. I’m open to disagreement on trans women in sports policy, but I think we should be careful with language like that. When we describe things as "male-coded," we're acknowledging that gendered meanings are socially assigned. That runs a bit counter to how I've observed many transsexual rights activists feel about gender social construction. I thought it would be beneficial to point that out. I also wanted to report that I'm feeling a bit better emotionally than I was earlier in the day. The beautiful weather, the riverfront, listening to Creed (which, for some reason, helps me a lot when I'm in crisis), and taking a few hours to gather my thoughts and feelings, it really helped me.

As someone who actually had the surgery, nobody is being sold that what they are getting is 100% the same as a vagina. Its functionally equivalent to the degree that it is helpful for our condition. Im curious with this supposed mass insurance fraud from trans surgery clinics. Why are insurance companies not conducting mass audits? Usually they dont like their money being stolen. Not to mention, the government with Medicare and Medicaid. Fraud happens, but its not some mass conspiracy.

I understood Prisha's meaning. I thought you would have too. @PrishaMosley works around the notion that it is fraudulent to persuade someone that a neovagina and a vagina are the same thing. Accounts like @EithanDHaimMD advocate around the financial fraud within the trans-medical complex. I also worked in health care for decades. I can distinguish between the two.

Oh, Prisha, lol. Medical fraud? I've worked in healthcare my entire adult life. I've never heard someone IRL ever say the term "medical fraud." I've only seen it from your little merry band of special interest-funded detrans "activists." Please enlighten me: how is my paying out of pocket with my own cash to Dr. Marci Bowers for a surgery that I was fully aware would be performed, how functional it would be afterward, given the potential complications, and the intense aftercare... How does that constitute "medical fraud?" I received a surgery that I paid for, and everything is fully functional in every way that I was promised, and ultimately has left me feeling absolutely no distress about my body, which was absolutely debilitating before the surgery. I'm asking you here in good faith.

I appreciate the response. Thats certainly a fair consideration. The recovery can be scary, but it helps if you have people you can rely on who've been through it to lean on. With your career, I'd agree, however many Ive known over all these years have all told me there is a market for post-op women in the industry. Something to consider, either way, I hope the best for you 🙂

@JennaLizzy itd most likely cause me to earn less in the long run + the surgery n recovery itself really does scare me!

give me a pussy NOW

Interesting. I have some news for you, that social construct of the Patriarchy? Its not some obscure, queer theorist academia nonsense. Its literally established in the Old Testament, thats how old of a social construct it is. Its the same document that says that you are an "abomination." If you were active in gay civil rights 20 years ago, Im certain that word triggers all sorts of painful feelings for you.

I don't care about a social construct called the patriarchy. Sex is protected in law. Women have equality. Any discrimination they face has legal tools to remedy. As an older gay male, I fought for equality with the majority. We won 20 years ago. As for wider society, nope, just this decades version in battling over conflicting rights. I don't consider coordinated political movements on either side mental illness.

Exactly. Preach, sister!

That open wound youre thinking about is actually your rotting, decaying brain. My heart hurts for you and others like you with your condition. Unfortunately, you allowed it to happen by becoming obsessive about people's genitals. Its the kind of condition that leaves you alone, meaningless, and dying.

@JennaLizzy I’m so sorry they lied to you and told you you can change your sex and build a vagina. You are still a biological male, just without a penis and with an open wound that will never heal. My heart hurts for the day you realize you mutilated yourself for nothing.

Not once did I ever give thought to the recovery time and process for SRS. It literally did not matter at all to me. I was perfectly willing to even die during the surgery because at least I could know I died with a vagina. Seriously though, like, the recovery isn't bad enough that anyone should reconsider whether to have the surgery or not if they are actually sex dysphoric. Yes, dilation multiple times a day fucking sucked, but it was a lot better than having that fucking horrible thing down there, by a long fucking mile. I was literally back at the gym dunking basketballs and playing full-court games within 8 weeks of having the surgery. If you legit have sex dysphoria, you should have zero reason not to go through with the surgery if you are in the right position to be able to have the surgery.

@ThaliaWrit Coolio, and that means nothing to anyone when you have no moral framework, no ethos to positively contribute to society.

@JennaLizzy Thing is I’m a woman.

It's truly fucking sickening how bloodthirsty you bitches are to send someone over the edge to kill themselves. You know exactly what you're doing too. Christ you're a therapist too. Youre a pathetic, sorry excuse of a human being. Your father should have worn a condom.

@ThaliaWrit Im here to remind you that youre a net negative on society, a meaningless, absolute trash of a person. Not a single redeeming quality in you.

@JennaLizzy Big reaction there. I’m not here to “send you” anywhere. I’m here to remind you you’re a man at all times and we reject your claim to womanhood. No matter how you feel. You speak appallingly of others and your force is destructive. Your criticism/manipulation means nothing.

@aeonsavi Thank you, Savì. I really appreciate you and your words in this moment ❤️

@JennaLizzy You are a woman, you are, you’ve already done the work, you don’t have to prove it anymore you just are, let that be carved in stone inside you

I think im going to take a walk to the riverfront, sit down, watch the water, and contemplate why any of this shit is even remotely worth it anymore. Im so exhausted from everything related to being trans. Its like a never ending battle of having to prove that youre woman enough, youre feminine enough, beautiful enough to everyone else's standards before they are willing to treat you as a woman, a female, as an equal even. I dont understand why after 15 years of transition, going through all of the trials and tribulations of transition, getting SRS, why people still tell me that Im not woman enough for their approval, recognition, and respect. That I havent performed feminity perfectly enough. Im crying right now if it isnt obvious from how this reads. Im just so fucking tired of being trans and having the entire experience follow me like its my shadow. Hopefully a walk and some deep contemplation with ease my heart's pain and I find that inner strength again. Just venting here by the way, try not to think the worst. Im just having a really really tough day mentally and emotionally.

Im curious, would you say that youre supportive of the Patriarchy? The comment about heteromative Patriarchy made me curious. Also, that part about both sides calling each other "terrorists." Do you ever find yourself thinking, "Christ, everyone is so lost in reality, brain rotted, and has driven them to extremely ideologically polarizing insanity?" I know I do at times. Society needs mandatory weekly deprogramming sessions and therapy to get their shit together again. Otherwise we are all just going to end up killing each other in the end, I'm afraid.

The political goal of eradicating the binary of sex and sexual orientation is global. Anywhere the acronym includes TQ, that is what the discussion is whether individual citizens are aware or not. The various posts I see from your account are queer theory in practice whether you call it that or not. Bio-essentialism, for example, is rooted in the attempt to undermine society and the 'heteronormative patriarchy'. The movement is also quite selective in which parts of the patriarchy they dislike and those that serve them well. You are welcome to believe that "I just want to live in peace" as some say, the rest of us are not accepting the political agenda. The dishonesty of the movement means this is now a court fight like the UK. There are no "be kind" moments in war and a battle for conflicting rights. The battle is escalating, they call GC a hate movement, we are calling TQ+ domestic terrorists for threatening violence routinely for political ends. You may not do so, but we all bear the brunt of the political branding of LGBT..... Freedom of speech and sex rights means, we don't use gender, we don't use a preferred pronoun and we insist people use the washroom in a sex segregated service according their sex as defined in law. I'm not an extremist, they are. After 15 years of dishonesty, they will have gender protection removed from law.

@SociaCin Hard, but I'll do my best.

@JennaLizzy I'd strongly doubt they're a therapist. Then again I hear America has a lower bar for that kind of thing. Ignore them hun.

@DeamonAuntie @tinybird420 Fascinating. I'm curious to hear more about your line of thinking here. How is what I said comparable to Plessy v. Ferguson?

@JennaLizzy @tinybird420 "I do not see a problem with what I said." Yes, so did the people who made Blacks only water fountains.

Im a transsexual. Why? Because I transitioned to be a female in biology and society. You, however, are transgender. You transitioned to be a trans person in society. We are NOT alike.

I wasn't even trying to fuck with them here. The experience they described is fundamentally different from mine. My experience is historically well known to be transsexualism. They don't share that experience. I'm not saying anything about me being special. I'm only stating a fundamental definitional difference in the experiences of two groups of people who shouldn't be considered the same but rather separate and distinct. I do not see a problem with what I said.

@JennaLizzy "I'm a transexual" "Hmph no you're not! I am! You're transgender 😡." You're not special Jenna.