Nancy Iskander

My heart is still shattered every single day since my beautiful boys, Mark and Jacob, were taken from us by Rebecca Grossman. I’ve seen claims from the Grossman family that I “don’t want closure,” that I’m filled with “vile malice forever.” Nothing could be further from the truth. Since the moment I lost them, only one feeling has lived inside me: **overwhelming, endless sadness**. Sadness that they’re not here. Sadness that their little brother Zachary misses them every second. Sadness that our family will never be whole again on this earth. My only hope for true closure is the promise in the Bible—that one day I will see my boys again in heaven. That is the day I quietly long for. Until then, the ache never leaves. I do **not** carry hatred or wish malice on the Grossman’s. Especially not on Nick. I think of him often—sitting in that courtroom, watching his mother led away in handcuffs, then having to text her boyfriend to leave his family alone. Imagining the heartbreak and confusion that young man felt shakes me to my core. It reminds me how the choices parents make can either protect or shatter their children’s hearts. My prayers are with Nick- No child should ever have to endure that pain. To everyone who has asked: I want to be very clear—I am **not** the admin of the “Justice for Mark and Jacob” Facebook or Instagram page, and I do not post there. It was lovingly created and is run by a caring community member who was heartbroken by what happened and wanted to honor my sons and seek truth. I’m deeply grateful for the love and support these pages represent, but they are not mine to speak for. All I want is for my boys’ smiles and laughter to be remembered, and to raise Zachary with their memory alive in our home, and to one day hold Mark and Jacob again. Thank you for reading my heart. If you’ve lost someone, if you’re grieving, if you believe in second chances for broken families—please know you’re not alone. Your kindness here means more than words can say. 💙 Mark & Jacob—forever in my soul. Until we meet again. #MarkAndJacob #ForeverLoved #GrievingMom #FaithOverHate

Here are photos of Rebecca Grossman’s car after she hit my sons. My 11-year-old, Mark was struck directly by the front of the vehicle, and my 8-year-old Jacob was hit by the side corner. When I look at the deep dents and damage their little bodies left on this high-end luxury SUV, it absolutely crushes my heart. The severity of those dents should give you an idea of the insane speed this car was coming at them at. It makes me pray they didn’t have time to feel any pain.

@FreeBirdWorld69 @Wejolyn Amen indeed- I am a living proof!

@Wejolyn @isknan His love is manifested more strongly in the most difficult situations 🙏

I testified in court this week, and the question I keep getting asked is: “How can you believe in a good God after He allowed your two sons to be mowed down by a speeding SUV and die on the road like that?” I do believe it. I believe in a good God who allowed my sons to die this way. He also allowed the brutal crucifixion of Jesus Christ and the violent deaths of His disciples — events that were followed by the resurrection and the explosive spread of Christianity across the world. To God, death is not the end. It’s simply changing places. Yes, this has shattered me and my family. The pain and suffering are very real and deep. But I believe God sometimes permits evil to touch us, just as He did with Job. I hold onto hope that I will one day see the fruit and greater purpose that comes from my boys’ deaths — just like the greater good that followed the suffering of Christ and the early church. If you disagree, feel free to challenge me. I’m open to the conversation.

@billdotd No apology needed.. ❤️❤️

@isknan Ok. I am sorry I didn't catch that - thank you for explaining

I have asked myself that question as well and I am guessing maybe everyone’s heart is different and only the strong ones can get through tragedies and hard times- But whether I am right or wrong, I also challenge myself not to compare my pain to others- I mean we each get a set of cards and everyone should just focus on playing their best hand. To each their own❤️❤️ love from my heart to yours.

@isknan I think you’re right. But so difficult to comprehend. What I don’t understand is why some people go through life easily & others live in torment. I want so much for God to come as promised. It’s difficult to live this life with so much suffering. youtu.be/Lq4PXLxTuVU?si…

@shitscaredmum I am so sorry I lost 2 sons, I feel your pain times 2. You are in my prayers today,

How is it possible that these photos are 5 years apart? I’ll never understand how our beloved girl went from running a marathon to leaving this world 3 years today and we miss Laura every minute of every day. Our job now is to continue her fight against #BrainCancer #BeMoreLaura

@awritefarley Counting the minutes

@isknan Thank you for your faithful testimony and waiting to be reunited with your boys!

@bridges_do91347 Amen, He is all knowing, all wise and all powerful

@isknan I totally agree! I have not "yet" gone thru something like your heartbreak. But your testimony of a Sovereign God is outstanding. My preferred statement these days..There is nothing going to happen, that GOD does not specifically allow. Period. HE is Wisdom that is enough!

@billdotd People asked on social media because my faith came up in the testimony

@isknan I am truly sorry about your loss. I can't begin to imagine losing my kids. But I'm confused - what does that question have to do with your court testimony? I mean, if you were on the stand who asked you that?

@Wejolyn God bless you and bless your angel in Heaven, he is now with Mark and Jacob,

@isknan My son was killed Dec 5/25 … I can’t imagine your pain, but I agree- I’ve never had a moment of anger or doubt towards our Lord Jesus- not once. We will see them again

Amen- I am so sorry about your daughter, I like to believe He is in charge of every little detail in the universe from the planets sizes, gravity, rotations… to our life details where we were born, where we live… etc… I think He sometimes allows evil ( and evil people) to hurt us but somehow uses it for our good and His Glory, I am hurting don’t get me wrong, but I like to believe the death of my babies was part of a very big production and it’s just one scene.

@isknan I asked this question when my daughter died. I am comforted the most by knowing Christ defeated Satan at the cross and we may have eternal life. Eternity is a very long time.

@b_c_m_123 I agree it might not be His doing, but He allowed it, no? He could have stopped it, but didn’t, He allowed evil to hurt those two boys who loved Him so much, which seems so unfair, like in Job’s case. I like to believe He is in charge of every detail even when it means we hurt.

@isknan I believe that we are in a fallen world. Evil happens. It’s not God’s doing. He gave us a pure world. He brought a son here to teach us. Crucified. It’s People who destroy the world and hurt others. I too believe we will see our loved ones in paradise. Until then we grieve.

@HeidiHarrisShow You are too sweet!

I’m reading this through tears. Nancy you’re my hero. 👇🙏💔

@NorCal_RepoMan @Stellaaa Thank you both so much

@Stellaaa @isknan 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Just wanted to say I’m praying for you and yours today Nancy Don’t ever hesitate to reach out if there’s ever anything y’all need Sending all the love lady @isknan

@shebacat22 Thank you ma’am

@isknan I listened to Karim's testimony today. It was heartbreaking. I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for the loss of your bright, beautiful boys.

My Mother’s Day hit different this year… Everyone asks if it’s hard without Mark and Jacob. It is. But this year, the hardest part was opening this sweet handmade card from Violet. She made a big pink heart that says “Happy Mother’s Day”… and right in the middle, she wrote “Mark & Jacob.” And included Jacob’s favorite Bible verse. My heart broke. I felt like such a bad mom — have I talked about her brothers so much that she thinks the only way to make me happy is to include them? That this day couldn’t just be about her and me? I don’t know how to address this and it’s breaking my heart even more. They’re still part of our family and our daily life. But I never want her to feel like she has to carry my grief.

@Venezia1970 Thank you! I am remembering them.

@isknan I’m very sorry your boys can’t be in this world with you- they will always be in your heart 💙💙

🌸Happy Mother’s Day to every beautiful mom who lost a son or daughter, May you baby send you a sign today, a familiar song, a breeze, a feather.. May he or she tell you clearly “I love you mom, I am here with you” If no sign comes and the day feels heavy with the grief and sadness, please know that you are wrapped in love. I know how brave you are and I hold you in my heart. Have a Happy Mother’s Day. 💗

@515050M Living with the grief like a dark cloud surrounding us at all times, had it not been for the faith that we will see them again, I don’t think I would be breathing today. Would love to meet your friend

@isknan How are the 3 of you holding up? Someone close to me lost 2 sons in a dd crash.

Once upon a time my husband and I had three beautiful sons. Then a drunk and irresponsible driver came along.