Nancy Iskander

My heart is still shattered every single day since my beautiful boys, Mark and Jacob, were taken from us by Rebecca Grossman. I’ve seen claims from the Grossman family that I “don’t want closure,” that I’m filled with “vile malice forever.” Nothing could be further from the truth. Since the moment I lost them, only one feeling has lived inside me: **overwhelming, endless sadness**. Sadness that they’re not here. Sadness that their little brother Zachary misses them every second. Sadness that our family will never be whole again on this earth. My only hope for true closure is the promise in the Bible—that one day I will see my boys again in heaven. That is the day I quietly long for. Until then, the ache never leaves. I do **not** carry hatred or wish malice on the Grossman’s. Especially not on Nick. I think of him often—sitting in that courtroom, watching his mother led away in handcuffs, then having to text her boyfriend to leave his family alone. Imagining the heartbreak and confusion that young man felt shakes me to my core. It reminds me how the choices parents make can either protect or shatter their children’s hearts. My prayers are with Nick- No child should ever have to endure that pain. To everyone who has asked: I want to be very clear—I am **not** the admin of the “Justice for Mark and Jacob” Facebook or Instagram page, and I do not post there. It was lovingly created and is run by a caring community member who was heartbroken by what happened and wanted to honor my sons and seek truth. I’m deeply grateful for the love and support these pages represent, but they are not mine to speak for. All I want is for my boys’ smiles and laughter to be remembered, and to raise Zachary with their memory alive in our home, and to one day hold Mark and Jacob again. Thank you for reading my heart. If you’ve lost someone, if you’re grieving, if you believe in second chances for broken families—please know you’re not alone. Your kindness here means more than words can say. 💙 Mark & Jacob—forever in my soul. Until we meet again. #MarkAndJacob #ForeverLoved #GrievingMom #FaithOverHate

The hardest thing after my boys were killed wasn’t just the unbearable grief. It was becoming “that person” everyone was suddenly scared to approach. Friends who used to stop and chat would look right through me, cross the street, or pretend they hadn’t seen me. I know many didn’t know what to say. The idea of child loss is terrifying — it shakes people to their core. They freeze, they avoid, they disappear. But that silence? It hurt almost as much as the loss itself. If you’ve ever lost someone and felt invisible… or if you’ve been the one who didn’t know what to say and pulled away… I see you. This grief journey is lonely enough without the extra isolation.

Those who leave take our hearts with them.

Rise, take up your bed and walk!

Jesus’ arms are always open wide for you. He doesn’t wait for you to be strong, perfect, or put-together. He sees your brokenness, your depression, your weary soul—and He simply says, “Come to Me.” Those gentle, nail-scarred arms are ready to wrap around you with a love that never fails, a comfort that runs deeper than any pain, and a peace that whispers, “You are safe here. You are loved beyond measure.” So run into His embrace today. Cry on His shoulder. Let Him hold you until the storm passes and your heart finds rest again. He will never let you go. 💛

@Bible365_ Be still, my soul, be still

@b_c_m_123 I am so sorry, it can be very painful but I like to see the tragedy as a blessing that allowed me to see the true hearts of those around me and why they were around me.

@isknan Unfortunately I know that feeling too. 💔 Most friends only want fun people as friends with limited problems. That’s what I’ve seen. Knowing I have Jesus helps me so much. 🙏

Thankful for the few out of many who remained my friends after the loss and pain

@Shadowstorm_ed You are very kind😊

@isknan Omg that's awful. I'm so sorry. I'll never understand American court systems. "Failed to prove malice". Two precious babies are gone, bc of u, what more need be said? Throw away the key imo. I'm sorry. Don't really have words I guess. I couldn't survive that. -hugs-

Today, we received the news we’ve been praying for: the appellate court has upheld Rebecca Grossman’s conviction for the murder of my precious sons, Mark and Jacob. Justice has taken another important step forward. While nothing can ever bring our boys back, knowing this chapter is now behind us allows our family to keep moving ahead with a little more peace in our hearts. Still, every milestone like this is a painful reminder that we’re building a future without Mark’s bright smile and Jacob’s sweet laugh. I’ll carry them with me always, imagining the lives they should have lived, the dreams they should have chased, and the love we were meant to share for decades to come. Thank you to everyone who has stood by us, lifted us in prayer, and demanded justice for Mark and Jacob. Your support means more than words can say.

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@isknan I'm sorry I don't know what happened, this is the first I'm seeing it 💔💔💔😢 can you point me to the place I can go read/watch real quick? Regardless, I'm so sorry u lost ur babies. I can't even imagine. If I had kids and that happened, I'd never survive, I'm just not strong😣

@brontyman Amen! That’s why so many guilty take the 5th. Simple an innocent percent doesn’t take the 5th they speak the truth

@RagnarKingofYou So I can make through his plans- his plans sometimes include pain and I would like to be carried through, that’s why I pray.

@Ballzdeeep1776 Thank you so much!

@isknan Dang , in my prayers tonight .

@harvey_cynthis We live through and overcome it every day

@isknan First time seeing your story. Im.so sorry 😞 Im glad the appeals court upheld it. Incredibly heartbreaking. Cannot imagine.

@sandytratt Thank you so much for following my story, people like you walking by my side are a true blessing

@isknan I've been following your story nearly from the beginning. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boys and am thrilled the appeals court made the right decision. Wish you all the best.

@Tiffany99366068 Amen!

@isknan Praise the Lord!

@jlamonteIII So true…

@isknan Hang in there. People with money, power & resources don’t like accountability. They like being able to buy or sway their way through it. Your children deserved better & I’m glad a court agreed with that. Wishing your family healing. ❤️

@jlamonteIII Thank you so much

@isknan Had not heard this story before this post and OH MY GOD. I cannot fathom going through this. I know it won’t bring them back but take them for everything they have. Accountability needs to be a thing again in this country. Much love! ❤️

Zachary and I going through life❤️❤️❤️ without Mark and Jacob

@TheRich_Gospel Sometimes it feels like Gods plan hurts so much, but in our hearts we know that’s what’s best for us. Lord have mercy.

God's plan, Alwayyyyyyys.