Yorick Penn

I was reading an essay on S*bst*ck, and found that a long comment I was leaving had turned into an essay. Go check it out (link in next tweet).

@RayAlexWilliams Good luck, Ray. I hope you find peace and flourishing.

As some have predicted, trying to repress my AGP has not worked, even with the Catholicism. It has been a constant struggle. I'm tired of battling my own desires. I want to go back to integration and crossdressing. I don't know how to square this with my faith. But I don't care anymore. Repression doesn't work. It just led to endless binge/purge cycles. I gave repression my absolute best shot. But I cannot do it anymore. AGP is a core part of me. There's obviously the sexual kinky side, which I enjoy, but there's also the side of me that just genuinely enjoys more "feminine" interests like women's fashion, makeup, beauty, skincare, etc., and wants to openly incorporate these interests into my life and how I present myself, whereas as a "conservative Catholic detrans man" those forms of expression were not available to me. I have no interest in re-transitioning via a gender identity or adopting new pronouns again or anything like that. I am firm in my knowledge of being a man. Been there done that. Neverthless, I see a future where I am free to crossdress to my heart's content and embrace my sexuality. I simply love women's clothing and fashion too much. My whole life I've loved women's clothes. I don't know why. Can't explain it. But a future deprived of that seems bleak to me. I know some of my more GC oriented followers are going to bristle at the thought of me once again bringing my fetish "out of the bedroom." But I don't really care what GCs think anymore. My once hardline GC position has somewhat softened, especially insofar as it concerns AGPs expressing themselves publicly. I don't really care if it's considered "shameful" or "perverted" by some. Moreover, I still believe in common sense. Haven't changed my mind on sports, child transition, basic reality, etc. But I feel like I am reverting back to a more "liberal" position of letting people express themselves so long as other people's rights are being protected, even if there is a degree of "ick" from male sexuality. And I've come to realize 99% of the philosophical debate around "are trans women women" is verbal dispute, like almost all philosophical debate over the meaning of words. It obviously has real-world implications that are important, but the philosophical debate itself doesn't interest me anymore. Nor do I feel myself aligned with GCs against trans as this all-encompassing civilization-ending boogeyman that sucks up all my time and energy. I've grown tired of the whole GC debate. Some will say this is now just obviously self-serving. But, again, I have stopped caring about what GCs think. Last, I want to address the accusation that I am a flip-flopping, flighty, unstable zealot who goes from one extreme thing to the next looking for an emotional crutch. Yeah, pretty much, lol. I got called out accurately. Everyone who predicted Catholicism was a temporary crutch to cope with my gender feelings can now feel vindicated. However, I do want to say that my faith beliefs were genuine. It was all genuine. It really was a struggle. It really was a beautiful journey. And I still consider myself Catholic. I still believe in God. Obviously, I don't know how to square my newfound liberal convictions with conservative Catholicism. But I will square that circle later (somehow, maybe).

My latest essay, exploring the now-obscure British photographer David Chamberlain, is now up! Give it a read (link in next tweet)

@ConceptualJames I might try to convince you that he's not really all that coy

You're going to have a hard time convincing me at this point that Matt isn't just the coyest of all the white ethnonationalists in America.

The whole “trans = pedophile” narrative was made out of thin air Even under the Blanchardism model, AGP was never associated with predation. It wasn’t even a stereotype until five minutes ago.

@TiresianRhodie This is how I experienced male puberty, except not only did society TREAT me as a monster my own inner thoughts WERE those of a monster (i.e. ordinary heterosexual male desire). Not fun, 0 stars, do not recommend

It feels like male puberty turns you into a horrible monster, physically but also in the way society start treating you. Your female friends and cousins start avoiding you, people stop being nice or approaching you. And if you lack the social skills to make up for it, it's OVER.

@TransAndMerican Great thread, thank you

We also ultimately are mostly just normal people trying to make the best in life, even if many of us do have issues with mental illness and poor behavior. Respecting our existence, actions, and chosen identities can go a long way in decreasing those of us like that.

I want to make a thread on why people should support transsexuals and our sociopolitical goals from a perspective that's not necessarily woke or progressive. See below!

@saddogstrut @BriannaWu Possibly also the idea that the (best? only? true? important? — not sure) motive for transitioning is as treatment for a mental health condition (gender dysphoria), not a mystical second soul or just you "feel like a woman" or whatever

@saddogstrut @BriannaWu I'm not Brianna but just for a rando's 2¢, I would say it's the idea that to count as trans you have to. medically transition (hormones at least, maybe more), rather than simply say "I identify as ____" and be accepted as that with. no further action needed.

Here is an example of an extreme trans policy I think hurts us. Chase Strangio literally got in front of SCOTUS and argued for the idea of “microgenders,” allowing people to shift the bathroom, pronouns, etc they use on a daily basis with self-ID. We lost that court case badly, paving the way for ADULTS to lose access to HRT. I am transmedicalist because I think it’s the only way to safeguard our rights.

A virus caused the AIDS apocalypse, not any human beings. One thing AIDS ought to have taught us all is that viruses are not moral arbiters. They're just biological facts we have to deal with.

@elegationvain Presumably the statistic that, in straight couples, women are most often the ones to initiate divorce is a relevant fact to incorporate into the answer. (I don't know why that is so, but it might point towards the answer to your question, or even BE the answer in some sense)

I know why the m/m divorce rate is so low (they’re never monogamous, so the leading cause for divorce is removed from the picture). But why is the f/f is so high?

@AnitaBart @benryanwriter @BriannaWu I think the middle ground on bathrooms is yes to people who pass and no to people who don't

@benryanwriter @BriannaWu He said "They are incapable of looking for middle ground on bathrooms." There IS no "middle ground on bathrooms." And for chrissakes, call these men men.

@AriDrennen Congratulations!

As a closeted trans girl in a tiny rural town, I never thought this day could be mine. Not in my wildest dreams did I imagine walking down the aisle as myself, marrying my best friend - but sometimes fairytales come true 👰

I'm sure if we examine this connection closely we'll find a simple unifying theory that will unpack the implications.

@elegationvain Yup.

ATTN: everyone who thinks changing the name of autogynephilia will make more transwomen comfortable admitting to it.

@sqibkw @BenjaminABoyce That's the joke

@PennYorick @BenjaminABoyce isn't that taken?

Name that band

@RayAlexWilliams Of course you're not the only one. Almost everyone thinks as you do

I cannot be the only man who cares about friendship and companionship in a potential spouse and not just having an obedient sex slave who makes me dinner? Am I crazy? This mindset is literally unthinkable to me and I don’t know if I’m the weird one or not. Btw, if you don’t know, Rollo is one of the founding leaders of the “red pill” manosphere movement.

Worth a read, from people on both sides of this issue (don't just read the one critiquing the side you sympathize more with!!)

@conor64 If you support her politics, Gryffindor; if you oppose them, Slytherin

I feel like the answer is one of the house names but I'm too old to know which one

Porn certainly *ought* to be just a fantasy. If there's a problem, it's not the fantasy but that some people are treating it as something else. And strangulation is way too dangerous and no one should do it, especially to anyone who hasn't explicitly asked for it