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Dear Sardonyx, on this day, April 28, that’s 11 years ago exactly with my packed baby bag. I drove myself to Pearl City to the Tripler army hospital where for the umpteen time where three times a week I checked in to monitor your life inside my tummy. You were supposed to be born today 11 years ago on April 28, this was the date the doctor put on your first ultrasound as the date you’re expected to be born at full gestation, healthy, strong baby, so I checked in the hospital. Ready. They gave me a bed. The birth contractions had been happening as expected. But the pains I feel today, 11 years later hurt more than the pain of those grueling 19 to 20 hours of labor at the pink lady hospital. From the beginning, it was just you and me. Inside my tummy you and I had many great moments, we talked we laughed we cried. I felt everything you were doing inside. I could feel your stretch. I could feel your fist. I could feel your legs. I felt every time you moved. I felt every time you try to say something. I taught you as much as I could before you were born. The songs I made for you that we sang all the time, you knew those songs before you were born, they’re your songs. Nobody else sings them. I hope you sing them in your heart now that we’re apart. Oh how the birds love you, they’re chirping a song for you. And in the morning is the earth turning to the sun, smiling at you giving you light, it makes the skyline yellow. I love you, Sardonyx. You are my world. You are everything I ever hoped you to be. Let me spare you the details of the laborious process of you coming out of my tummy. One day I will tell you when you can understand the medical miracles of bringing a baby out of mommy’s tummy. But today, April 28 you stayed with me one more day. You gave me one more day of peace with just you and me. You were so relaxed you weren’t in any rush. You were comfortable. All the nurses and doctors checking but you were taking your time, no rushing. You didn’t give me too much hurt. You wanted to come out, but you didn’t wanna give me too much pain. You wanted me to know you appreciated me the months we spent together. Just you and me. I never told you this. I never told anybody this but thank you for that one extra day, it means the world to me now. Now that they’ve stolen you away from my arms and trying to steal your name, these nine months I can honestly say were the greatest, enough for a lifetime of joy. And the 10 years since we’ve been together just you and me, means more than a lifetime of happiness, a lifetime of joy. Our little squabbles, as you got older and made up your mind and could debate and could argue, I miss. I want to argue with you now. I want to debate with you over how much exactly is in a teaspoon, or whether it’s a fire or a water truck. But I think I won that debate because it doesn’t carry fire, it’s a water truck, it carries water and it sprays water, not fire. So the next time you see a water truck remember to smile. And also the next time you see a Amazon prime truck remember to smile. When you see Coca-Cola truck remember to say I love you. Or a Pepsi truck, or UPS truck I can’t remember what the code is, but every time I see one I say I love you son. Tomorrow will be April 29, so I’ll wait till to say it’s your birthday. But if I see a Walmart truck or a JB Hunt truck I will say hello to Liz, because I think her birthday is exactly one year ahead of yours, very close very very close. Remember all our friends who have loved us from the beginning and been there for us year after year. And remember Camille the twins, they just had their birthday. Only your dates that I try hard to remember. You are the only one that I adore more than any other human. I am proud of you and I love you and I dedicate my entire life to your happiness and your success, all I have is yours, or what is left of me is yours and yours only. Sardonyx I love you my only son, my one true love. Charlene Brown Mommy.
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