Sebastian Lemke

Self awareness leads to self-acceptance. Self-acceptance leads to self-love. Self-love leads to radiating love, reaching out to the world. Start within to change your world for the better.

@tyromper @david_parker @ZubyMusic Tyler, How can I figure out why God put me on this earth? I have such a hard time to get clarity it this. Besides of praying, any advice?

@david_parker @ZubyMusic David, this is the way!!! I truly believe if you don't know why God put you on this earth yet.... don't watch another TV show, sports game or anything. Discover this & life takes off!!!

“Be who God made you to be, and you will set the whole World on fire.” -Saint Catherine of Siena

If you're #healing from #Trauma, here are a few of my fav accts: @Feats_strength @DrDoyleSays @AimTrue7 @Persistence982 @TraumaHealing23

@OneMaxBaker How do you regain 'your truth'? I feel like I don't know anymore what's my 'truth'...

If you don’t stand for your truth your kids inherit your silence.

@TraumaHealing23 So great to read this

I was on a zoom yesterday with a friend of mine and at one point she said, "You are such a natural storyteller!" Once again, someone said something that sounds odd to my ear. It sounds "off". Like it just can't be true. But, then I think about it. There IS some truth there. I do tell a pretty good story! What I've noticed lately is this keeps happening! Someone will reflect something back to me. Some new identity. Something positive. And it feels off or odd to me. I struggle to hear it. Accepting it feels weird. While journaling this morning about it, it hit me: Complex trauma programmed me "to be" just a few things. A handful of labels to define me. To meet the needs and wants of my parents. I was only "allowed" or "given" those few: smart, hard worker, disciplined, responsible. I was handed such a limited definition of my life. But, now? I'm breaking free. I'm expanding. I can see more of what I am. I can hear the things others share and not dismiss them out of hand. Sometimes, I can even accept them. Most importantly, I'm now exploring. Who I am. What I like. Where does my heart sing. Who lifts me up. Where does my energy come from. Healing works wonders!

Depression runs deep. Deeper than most people will ever know. Deeper than those who suffer from it will probably ever know. It’s often misunderstood by those who don’t experience it or don’t have a basic understanding of what depression really is. It’s not a lack of motivation. It’s not a habit of laziness. It’s a sense of entitlement. It’s not any of those things. So what is it? It’s a variance in how their brain functions, It’s a neurochemical cocktail that’s keeping them in those feelings of trappedness, stuckness, or helplessness. It’s not a choice they want to make. It’s not a choice they’re enjoying. It’s not a choice to consciously avoid responsibility. Most of the time, it’s the opposite. Those experiencing depression want to get out of the mental and emotional funk that has plagued their existence for so long. The funk that has robbed them of joy and fulfillment by keeping the colors of perception to a dull gray and low resolution. Most of the time, people experiencing depression know that they’re behaving in ways that are unhelpful and even harmful, but the habit patterns of their brains have been ingrained so deeply that it’ll take years of conscious undoing to even start to scratch the surface of healing. So stop telling people experiencing depression to ‘snap out of it.’ They’re doing the best they can. Instead, be kind.

My first-ever posting on Medium! It's not on trauma healing, but thought some of you might enjoy it. Thanks to @pigeonxphoenix for helping inspire me to start putting more words into the world! I just published Love Comes Naturally. medium.com/p/love-comes-n…

Today, it feels like I'm drowning in shame... Being scared to be unable to meet everyone's expectations... Scared to fail at work and home the next week... And now I'm beating myself up, that I wasted this sunday to recharge...

Over the last weeks and months, anxiety and sadness are becoming ever present. And shame. I feel basically ashamed of simply 'being'. Ashamed of my flaws. Of my Mistakes. For wanting to do things I enjoy. Ashamed I'm unable to forgive myself. Not being able to provide for my family like they deserve. Having desires. Being a man.

@TraumaHealing23 Your journey, your honesty and courage to share your story with the world is deeply inspiring my friend! Whenever we talked in the past, your compassion, humility and honesty shine through. You did a hell of a job to heal your wounded inner child. God bless you, man!

It's a tough thing to finally see, in my 50s, just how harmful my family of origin was. My dad was emotionally very limited and often violent and didn't have an ongoing relationship with any of his children. He passed last year without friends or even a funeral. My mom is a deep narcissist, who I finally saw has used me to meet her needs for my entire life. I finally cut contact. Watching her continue to make things about her as my brother battled and died of cancer over a two-year period was tragic and eye opening. All three of my siblings have/had addiction issues. Mine was work. My brother who passed away was the only one I even had a semi-normal relationship with. I don't have contact with anyone any longer; my sister and mom is by my choice and my middle brother cut us all off over a decade ago. I've reached out to him many times, to no avail. It's just such a broken wasteland of a family that I come from. I often wonder how I turned out even semi-OK? Whenever I think about it, it's like looking out over a vast desert of sadness, loss, and grief. Yes, I know many others had far worse situations. But I also know my perspective and feelings are real and legitimate. My intention is to remain open to any feelings as they arise. There are many. I know that is what will need to be processed over time. As ever, thanks for listening my friends.

@Persistence982 Congratulations!!

PATTERN-BREAKING Is part of a healing journey-aligning our thoughts & actions with our inner wisdom. I completed the Principal Qualification Program-Part 1. I DID IT! AND I'M PROUD OF IT. Expressing that is big. My healing journey came through in my PHILOSOPHY OF EDUCATION 🙏💫

@TraumaHealing23 @JBrooks844 Yes, can only second what @JBrooks844 wrote!

@JBrooks844 Thank you.

Now that both of our sons have moved out and are across the country from us, we do a weekly call. After yesterday's, a thought hit me: Just how unlike these calls are from ANYTHING that ever happened in my origin family. Calm. Peaceful. Respectful. NO verbal combat! 1/2

@TraumaHealing23 Maybe the amazing @LeighStJohn33 can help you in that regard.

For the Meditators and/or Energy Folks: Does it mean anything when body movement moves from the arms/legs to the torso and head? I've been meditating for maybe a year, focusing solely on what I'm feeling inside my body. Extremities for months, but now torso and head. thanks!

@TraumaHealing23 "I want to be a writer and healer." Love to read this, my friend! I see you and believe you got this! Have the same whisper in my heart on good days - yet I feel there is more to let go and to heal.

I spent over 30 years working hard and fighting to make other people's lives better. It was my core identity. I've now spent 3 years healing from complex trauma. My old identity is falling away. Recently I said out loud for the first time, "I want to be a writer and healer."

"Lord, I rest my heart in your hands. Take care of everything."

Quick sketch as a little gift for my wife. Inspired by the drawings of Charlie Mackesy. Want to 'find' both the 'girl' and the 'horse' and how to draw them best...

Question for the breathwork experts: @BreathingByEd @breathe__better I'm aware my breathing during the day isn't great. But, my question is: waking up, my breathing is fast, shallow and I wake up stressed and anxious. What's the best way to get to a healthier breathing pattern during sleep?

@amydoublet A scared boy - feeling unseen by men, judged by women - and so not showing himself, bc staying in the shadows feels safer than pursuing dreams... At least that's what can sense inside and what needs to be addressed in my healinh journey. Thanks for the question, Amy